The Final 1

Some of you already know this piece of news – but for those who don’t…

I am one of the lucky Top 60 contestants for The Final 1 Singapore!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WOOHOO!!!

The newest, and apparently biggest, reality singing competition to hit our little sunny island. When I got the call from Mediacorp saying I have been selected as one of the Top 60 contestants to participate in this show…. I was in utter disbelief. I really didn’t think I’d even make it to the Top 60 – I was just trying my luck at the auditions for fun.

And what do you know??? I actually got in!!!!! :’)

Out of over a thousand hopeful entries, me! This is a huge deal to me because I’m such an amateur singer if I do say so myself, and to be shortlisted as one of the contestants for the first ever singing competition I’ve joined in my life, a significantly large scale one at that, was tremendouysly thrilling indeed! This is as big as a show is going to get in Singapore, honestly! My childhood ambition has always been to be a singer. Now that I’m older and have come face to face with the real world, I know it’s not as simple or achievable as it sounds. But that doesn’t mean I’m not going to stop hoping.

For the first time, I turned that “want” into “do”, and “hope” into “action”.

Here I am…. cheekily beaming away on their contestants page, looking wayyyyy too purple. I’m like a giant eggplant decked in floral wear. What the heck?!

WHY in good god’s name did I consciously choose to wear a purple dress when I have purple hair? When I have a hundred other dresses in my wardrobe…..? Sometimes I think I ought to be shot by fashion police. LOL. Too bad I often realize my fashion mistakes a little too late for rectification. *heaves a whopping sigh*

If you’ve been tuning into Channel 5 on our local TV…. You may have seen this advertisement to promote the show featuring yours truly in my Begin Again music video!!! :)

LOOK MA, YOUR DAUGHTER’S ON TEEVEE!!!

I was like :OOO when a fellow contestant told me “Hey, your video is on Channel 5!!”. It’s always exciting news to be on TV, but even more so when it’s your singing clip that they choose to feature! The last time I was on TV was for a Eu Yan Sang Weight Loss feature last year, a lot less glamorous than this one because my fatness was exposed on national television, thank god I don’t have to die knowing that the only time I ever appeared on television was because I was fat. I got appear because I got talent also okay!!!! Hoo-rah!

I don’t watch much TV at all (I’m more of a movies kinda girl) but I hope I get to see my advertisement at least once before the premiere of The Final 1 airs!!!!! I am also excited to watch the first episode of the show, of course, but the difference is… this advertisement is 100% me. Lol. Whereas the first episode will feature 59 other contestants. So this is my only real time to “Shine” without anyone else stealing my limelight. Literally 10 seconds of fame HAHAHA.

More about the fabulous Top 60 contestants in The Final 1:

Oh lord, you can actually see my awful candid shots in various parts of the video – in fact in the very first few frames you can spot a bored-looking purple haired girl sitting in a chair stoning away. (And sashaying away in the background at 0:20 LOLOL) It was a very long video shoot, we filmed for over 12 hours…. unfortunately my tiredness was indirectly captured on camera!!!!!!

To be really honest with you, I’m not looking forward to seeing myself perform on TV. If you have half a brain and have read my previous emo posts, I’m sure you would’ve figured out just why. Furthermore, I don’t know how weird / fat / awkward / fail I’d look and even worse – how I would sound like!! Hopefully passable? I can’t remember ANYTHING solid from my performance.


Here’s how it basically went down.

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My name was called to go on stage. My heart stopped at that very second. “Don’t trip when going up the stairs”, I told myself. I walked onto stage. I heard the other contestants sing. They were GREAT. Like, beyond great. They rocked my world. I knew it was going to be very very tough for me to top them, and to be honest I felt so intimidated and petrified, I wanted to just drop off the face of the earth forever and never return or at least run off the stage to hide my face until people forget my name, at that point in time….. but, cameras were rolling & recording & all eyes were fixated on me – so bo fucking bian, gotta go through with it, no matter how much of a pussy I felt like. Eventually, I was asked to introduce myself by either Taufik / Kit Chan (my entire memory of this event is sucha blur I honestly cannot recall properly) and then I opened my mouth to sing. I started off VERY shaky. It didn’t help that the song I chose did nothing for my voice, as well. So many bad decisions on my end, I didn’t know any better :’( I was so nervous, my heartbeat was louder than my own voice. I was supposed to hear music and myself singing but after a few seconds, all I heard was deafening silence. It’s probably the sound of fear.

I glanced over at Ken Lim’s direction, he didn’t seem so impressed. My heart sank. “Don’t look at Ken Lim, DON’T LOOK AT KEN!!!!!!” I kept repeating in my brain. “I’ll look at Taufik instead, he’s got a less fierce face.” Taufik managed a half smile at me. My hands are drenched in cold sweat, I was afraid that the microphone would slip right out of my grip and fall onto the floor, causing an ear shattering boom. That would be embarrassing. I was so numb with stage fright that I couldn’t even feel my fingers at all. Throughout the whole time I was singing, I didn’t even feel like I was singing (or breathing or existing). It felt like an outer worldly experience, as if I was dreaming, just witnessing the whole thing from a third person point of view. I don’t know if you understand what I’m trying to say, but sometimes your body does things without your mind actually being there. When it’s all over, your mind snaps back to reality and you’re just like, “Woah, did that really just happen?” because it felt exactly like a daydream. Like my soul left my body or something. Yes, it’s THAT dramatic.  Before I knew it, I was reaching the end part of my song.

Time to hit that relatively big note Jess……….. DON’T SCREW IT UP…. Oh, fuck. Nerves got the better of you, this time, girl. The rest, is history. You have to watch the show to find out what actually happened!

I’ve never felt this way in my whole life before. I have been scared, I have been insecure, I have been unsure, I have been nervous… but NOTHING could compare to how I felt that day. It felt like my heart was going to implode, both from stress and excitement. I wanted to burst into tears just from the sheer overwhelming emotions and adrenaline running through my veins. On a live stage with 50+ other contestants looking on, Kit Chan, Taufik Batisah and Ken Lim judging your every move and note + big fat cameras planted everywhere in front of you.. not a good virgin attempt at public singing. I wish I had experiences in live gigs or performances prior to this competition, but well, the fact remains that I didn’t. I am a rookie. I don’t want to get all emo again lah. I want to learn from my mistakes and carry on life, making the best out of my future opportunities. For the rest of my feelings about this, please refer to this post and that post  if you haven’t already read them.

Thank you to everyone who has been excited for me to be part of this journey and for all the encouraging messages as well. I don’t think I did my best at all for the performance in terms of vocal ability but I really gave it my all in terms of effort + determination. I just didn’t have the skills to execute what I wanted to achieve.

Nevertheless, if you want to catch me and my purple hair on TV….
See you guys on your television set on 24th April, 8pm, Channel 5!!!!

I’m only a small, small part of this big show. The rest of the contestants, however, are another story. You DON’T want to miss the epic-ness of their singing talent. I just can’t comprehend how some of them are not already famous yet. I can’t stop gushing. And trust me, when you watch the show – you will as well! I can’t wait for the live shows baybeh!!!!! Lights, camera, action! Get ready, Singapore.

THE FINAL 1 TROOPS…. ONWARDS!!!!!!!!!!!!

xoxo,
Jess

Beauty And A Beat

HAI GUISE. Today I’m back with a new Youtube video for you guys to criticize / praise (lol hopefully the latter)!!!! WOOPIE-DOO!

This is my third song cover on Youtube, and a wild Luke from my 2nd video (Ah Boys To Men Mash Up) re-appears!!! AND we did a Justin Bieber song!!! Say whaaat? I know, I know… I never ever thought I’d cover Justin Bieber on Youtube (much to my boyfriend’s displeasure he hates him lol), but well, life is full of surprises and risks so why the hell not. I think his new music is a lot more tolerable and super catchy. in fact. This song has been stuck in my head since foreverrrrrr, the most resilient earworm ever.. so I just HAD to cover it!

Here you have it - Beauty And A Beat by Shiberty, Luke Lee & Sky Ong! :)

Sky, Luke & I had a lot of fun shooting this light hearted video, running around various locations across Singapore (mostly esplanade area and SCAPE) and recording this in quite a jiffy. If only so many people weren’t staring at us when we filmed at crowded public areas.. Anddd I’m sort of sorry for fixing my hair like a bajillion times in the video, the wind had it flying all over my face!! Or maybe I’m just really vain. Which is more likely the truth.

If you enjoyed our cover, please Share with your friends, Like this video, Comment and Subscribe! Do check out the boys’ channels as well!!! :D I will keep on posting more covers because I absolutely LOVEEEE to sing and I do it everyday, whether I’m being filmed or recroded or not. Thanks for all the nice comments you guys have left regarding my previous videos and I thank you for continue to support the crazy things I get up to, like baking customized cakes and singing on Youtube!!!

Luke Lee: http://www.youtube.com/user/lukeleewenloong
Sky Ong: http://www.youtube.com/user/zildjian186

If you have any song suggestions on what I should cover next or constructive criticism, please do let me know!! I will have another cover up in March and I’m still deciding which song I should attempt. :)

xoxo,
Jess

Ah Boys To Men acoustic mash up

So if you’re a Singaporean and have any sense of national pride or curiosity, you probably would have already seen the Ah Boys To Men movies.

If not both, then at least Part 1? But if you haven’t seen Part 2, YOU SHOULD!!! IT’S SO DAMN GOOD. In my opinion it’s leaps and bounds better than Part 1 and it’s the best local film I have seen to date. There isn’t a single dull moment, I was kept on the edge of my seat throughout the show. I laughed a lot, and cried a few times. :’)

I liked the movies so much, in fact, that I decided to do an acoustic mash up cover of both theme songs from Ah Boys To Men with actor/rapper/dancer Luke Lee (aka sexy Sergeant Heng in the pink bikini) and Sky Ong, the talented producer and videographer of my videos. Sky was the one who helped me materialize my Youtube ambition with this first video cover of Taylor Swift’s “Begin Again”!!! I owe so, so much to him.  Luke contacted me awhile ago, and after finding out he plays one of the sergeants in Ah Boys To Men, we figured a mash up of the theme songs would be totally appropriate and awesome. Of course we had to get Sky to do the video with us, what would we do without him???

Here’s my singing if you haven’t heard it before. It was done in October 2012, and since then, I’ve really been itching to release another music cover. I don’t know why it took me so long to get this done. I am the queen of procrastination. I was thinking of doing more Taylor Swift songs but I didn’t wanna seem to predictable or anything y’know, so I delayed for a few months, thinking what cover should come next. Nevertheless, I’m just really happy this new video is out there right now.

Without further anticipation…. *drumroll*

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This is our brand new cover of Ah Boys To Men Theme Songs Mash Up!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Filmed at Esplanade a few days ago. Sky works fast on his videos, haha.

Sooooooooooooo. I hope you liked what you just heard!!!

I felt funny saying the word “chiong.” That’s just…… not a world I’d normally use. You get to see my new purple hair in action. :P And Luke’s wicked dancing and rapping!

There’s not a lot of me in it actually, as you might have noticed.. pretty much just a few singing verses to add a feminine twist to the song, sorry if that disappointed you a bit…. most of the songs consist of rap, which I can’t do – but I’m still proud to be in this production, working with wonderful people and singing wonderful songs with wonderful meanings!!! The older I get, the more I truly appreciate living in a country like Singapore. I don’t believe there is any place else in the world quite like it, and I’m nothing short of privileged to be able to grow up and live here. I love how it’s filmed with Marina Bay Sands in the backdrop, considering how it is such an iconic landscape, and I spend so much time there.

I’m going to be putting out another music cover video real soon, probably in the next week or two, and that one has mostly me singing in it! Like 90%. Hint: It’s a Justin Bieber song. LOL NO DON’T RUN AWAY YET.

We made it nice to listen to (I think.) So have some faith in me :’D

If you enjoyed our cover or think it’s pretty neat, please do embed it on your blog or facebook / post the link on twitter and mention @shiberty (I’ll happily retweet you!) / like and subscribe on youtube, and basically share it with your friends! It would mean the whole wide world to me, Luke, and Sky. We would actually give you a hug if we saw you in real life if you helped us spread the word about our work. Ok maybe not them but me, sure. I’ll throw in a kiss or a first born even. LOL Check out their Youtube channels as well, it’s in the video description! I’ll be happy to hear from you guys about what you think – even if you hate the video (why would you? T_T). I’m open to all sorts of criticism and feedback because I’m still trying to figure my way out through this whole Youtube thing… Thank y’all so very much for supporting my first ever music video Begin Again and giving me 30+k hits for it, here’s hoping this one will be as well received as the last!!!

THANK YOU FOR WATCHING. Singapore represent!

xoxo,
Jess