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Penang Trip – Part 1

Oh heeewwoooo lovelies!!!

First of all, I’m terribly apologetic for the lack of updates. I feel so bad because I’ve been receiving a crazy amount of ♥ from you guys yet I feel like I’ve been neglecting my blog a little.

Thank you so much for all the encouraging messages, emails, comments, etc!!! I LUFF YEW!

I was on a short getaway holiday with family to escape all my nasty feelings back at home and it really worked wonders because I’m so much happier now!!!!

Everyone should take holidays once in awhile, it’s the ultimate de-stresser, even if it’s an affordable short one to Batam. (cheap spa treatments there!)

We went to Penang, Malaysia... don’t ask me why coz my mum chose the location. o_o

Honestly I didn’t think much of the place and wasn’t sure how excited I should be but I ended up having a blast!!! I think it was the company, good food, luxurious resort and the fact that everything was paid for by my mum hehe

This trip was really impromptu (come to think of it most of my trips are) and it was organized by mum because she knew I loved the beach and how much I needed a break.

They were planning to go to KL originally and I wanted to sit out, but she changed the location for me and I was all like, “beach resort?? hell YEAH!!”


Now I present to you, my Penang Trip – Part 1! ♥

I’ve a new character to introduce on my blog – Everybody say hello to Janice!!!!

Not that she can actually hear you… :P

She’s my brother’s girlfriend and I adore her! She’s chirpy and sweet.. and very easy to get along with ♥

Yay isn’t she cute? She’s pretty, quite short and super skinny, I feel like a giant pregnant walrus beside her wtf.

This was in the cab on our way to Changi Airport…

I love living and the East and staying so close to the airport!

I just ♥ my condo in general. From the airport to home = 10 mins. Despite living like 10 mins away from the airport I’ve never heard a plane from my house before!

My bro and Jan~

Throughout the trip I took 93245792784 pictures for them wtf -_-

Walk around with a DSLR hanging from your neck and people will automatically assign you as their official photographer. And there’s so little pics of ME!! Boohoo.

Totally not enough to fulfill my narcissistic needs lol.

I like going out with other bloggers because they’re always so enthusiastic about taking shots, and not just any shot, NICE shots! With proper angle and lighting. So hard to find people like that nowadays.

You ask a normal person to take pictures for you and they look at you with an expression on their face going, “You’re so troublesome!!”

Meh.

Like I said, I was the official photographer for the trip.

Ok la at least they’re a cute couple.. I would hate to have to keep taking photos of unphotogenic people LOL

With mummy and Jan checking in at the counter!!!

I was blinking :(

But it’s a pretty funny expression haha I look high off my nuts or something. My camera needs a couple of seconds to Auto-Focus the shot so you can’t really tell when it’s snapping because sometimes it takes 2 secs, other times like 7 whole seconds -_-

I think other people are so used to instant-shutter point and shoot cameras that they get confused while handling mine!!

They’re always like “why haven’t take yet ahhhhh”..…….

It’s focusing. PATIENCE, my friend!!!

Them doing the check-in for us… while I goof behind them!! Like the kid that I am.

I like going on holiday with my mum because she handles all of the authoritative matters! She books the flights and the hotels and the tours.. plus pays for them too lol mad awesome.

I feel soo grown up whenever I travel on my own but with them I can be a 10 year old and nobody really cares.

I like it when people always ask me, “Are you hungry? What do you feel like eating? Are you tired? What do you want to do?” and people giving me wake up calls, etc.

What can I say? I’m too used to being pampered. *not shy about it at all*


Jan and I!!!

You like my smiley face jumper? Hehe.

I needed a reason to smile when I was feeling shitty, and how could I NOT smile wearing such a cute outfit?!

Thank you Mummy and Uncle John for the trip!!! ♥ ♥ ♥ Appreciate it sooo much

This is my O HAI I’M GOING ON HOLIDAY HAHAHAHA I IZ HAPPY!!! face.

Had lots of time to spare before we had to board the plane because my mum is mad kiasu, she ALWAYS rushes us like mad everywhere and in the end we have nothing to do because we are always at least an hour early at the airport!!



So lunch at Soup Restaurant it is!

Ginger boiled chicken…… yuummmmm I usually hate ginger but this is oh so yummy!

I HAVE to order this + ah kong fan shu ye + claypot tofu when I’m there.

Claypot Tofu!!

Does anyone know what they put in it to make it so yummy? It’s like really sweet and starchy.

Thought we could board our flight immediately after lunch but no… still a lot of time to spare -_-


I ♥ Singapore’s airport!!!

I’ve been to quite a few places around the world and am devastatingly disappointed by how substandard other airports are.

Airports are so important because it’s the first impression you get when you step onto a country’s land for the first time!

They’re small, dirty / old looking, boring, and makes me feel like their country is a depressing place. Singapore’s air port is clean, with lots of restaurants and shopping and wonderfully air conditioned and green plants / fountains everywhere…

Lovely :)

Cute plushies for sale at a souvenir shop!

Like I said.. plants everywhere! Does so much for the “relaxing” atmosphere!

Bro waiting with our luggage while mum shops around…

I think that was her intention, to arrive early so we have no choice but to wait for her to shop. Crafty!!!

Mum and Uncle John watch-shopping in Omega..

Mum’s like, “I want this one!!” and he’s like “Oh FML.”

LOL

Never understood peoples fascination with watches. Isn’t it uncomfortable??

Plus if you wanna look at the time you can always take your phone out. And they’re so expensive!!

I can understand if guys like em because it’s about the only jewellery they can wear without looking too gay but females have better fashion statements to wear!!

Sorry but watches are so not fashionable to me even if they’re worth 8 thousand dollars and dressed up with bling.

I’m not sure if this one was the piece she picked in the end but I quite like it coz it’s elegant simple. Most watches are plain ugly :(

Still bored…. so I take pictures of my bro and Jan doing nothing in particular. Why do people get annoyed when others point a camera in their faces??

Personally I’d be very flattered, I love the attention and would pretend to be candidly posing hahaha

Realized what boring photographic subjects they were so I moved on to something better. My own face :)

LOL I’m so laughing at how stupid I sound

And yes, that is me sitting in a high class watch shop placing my bulky DSLR on their counter top snapping vain pics with self-timer pretending to be blissfully unaware that my picture is being taken.

Oscard award for shamelessness, anyone?

Hello baby!!! ♥

I’m talking to my camera… not you.


:) xoxo

Digressing a little…

I was at a cosmetic shop wanting to buy foundation for the first time in my life, so I asked the make up artist working there, “What shade should I buy that would best suit my skin tone?

To which he replied with a funny expression on his face, “You don’t need foundation.”

You shoulda seen his face! I didn’t know to laugh or to be flattered.

I have an obsession with head bands.

I think the top part of my hair is absolutely disgustingly out-of-shape and flat and my fringe can be pretty gross so I almost always go out with a headband pulling my fringe all up.

Should I cut bangs?? Usually that solves my gross fringe problem… but I don’t wanna look childish :/


SAY CHEESE!

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After what seemed like forever, we board the plane!

Passport? Check.

Boarding Pass? Check.

Took this picture before we flew..

I’ve flown in planes at least 5 times this year alone but I get really nervous before each flight still. I have a phobia and this weird feeling in my gut that things will go horribly wrong.

Then again I’m afraid of everything exploding in my face, even microwaves and cars so I guess it’s not such a big deal…

How can people be so casual about being so fucking high up in the air?!?!? Scares me shitless every time!!

Sitting in the window seat makes me feel a lot better because the stunning views is a great distraction from my vigorously thumping heart.

This picture is the perfect backdrop for an inspiring quote!!! Something like…. “The sky is not the limit.”

Hahah okay that was bad. Maybe something better like, “Tomorrow is a new day.”

LOL nvm I fail at quotes. But one from Tumblr would be nice!


Such a beautiful clear day!!!

I usually fly in the night so I never get such views.. I didn’t realize before this how much I adore clouds :)

So fluffy and makes me feel all dreamy-ish!!! I wanna bounce up and down on them.

I love this shot!!

Actually I love a lot of shots from this trip hehe.

There’s plenty more gorgeous pics coming up in the next few posts :)

Interesting cloud formations!

Apparently they all mean different things, like whether it’s going to rain or not..

Who else likes trying to make shapes out of clouds? Usually I lie on my back in the swimming pool, just floating in the water…

Then I look up into the sky and stare into the clouds with my sunnies on (coz my eyes are very sensitive to light) and usually I see elephants coz they’re fat, lol!

I’m jealous!!

I want somebody special’s arm to hold on a flight too. I get so nervous it’s not even funny wtf. The slightest bit of turbulence makes my heart explode and I grab onto the handrests for dear life.

Btw I asked my brother what would happen if we crashed into the water and he said that we’d float because all planes float.

FOR REAL?? I tried google-ing but couldn’t find a definitive answer. Will airbuses float?

Every time I see an air stewardess I sing Busted’s “Air Hostess” song in my head, heh

Not that there’s anything wrong with this particular one, but I think that what they say about air stewardesses having a certain “standard” is completely bullshit. Maybe it existed in the past but not anymore.

Any fail-english-speaking ah lian also can be an air stewardess nowadays… and totally not pretty or well mannered / educated at all!!

And I really think they should stick to a uniform hairstyle and make up code. Dramatic faux lashes are tacky and so is blue eyeshadow :/

I wonder if first class passengers on airlines like Emirates would get super hot air stewardesses!

My on board snack… tuna sandwich + apple juice

Yay for vintage looking photos!

It was a very short flight, only about an hour so before I could get over the fact that we were flying few thousand feet in the air, we were landing already.

A mini rainbow effect greeted me as we landed!!! Totally made me smile :)

The first thing I noticed about Penang was how they had HOUSES AND SHOPS right next to the landing runway.

Like seriously 100m away or even lesser, they looked so dangerously close!!!!

Safety precautions = FAIL!

One wrong landing and all those people would get run over, how horrifying!

Plus wouldn’t all the aeroplanes taking off and landing be deafening?

Waiting for our luggage..

Penang’s a lot cleaner than Kuala Lumpur, and infinitely safer also, it’s considered the 2nd safest city in Malaysia!

Very comforting fact because my mum is always telling me to beware of rapists and muggers in M’sia wtf makes me damn scared everywhere I go

Our hotel sent a van to pick us up and off we went on a 40 mins journey to the hotel!

Their city is quite interesting, at times you see very modern high-rise buildings and right next to it is a worn out old looking kampung hut kind of house lol.

Fell asleep on our way there…

I love falling asleep in cars because when I wake up I feel like I’ve been sleeping for ages when it’s only been like 15 minutes or so!

Best power nap :)

Camwhore shots before I fell asleep!

Took this with my compact cam because it’s stupidly hard to take self shots with a DSLR -_-

Fact : Everyone looks good with shit cameras like webcam and fuzzy pixelated pictures. No photoshop required.

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…And we arrive at Shangri-La’s Rasa Sayang Resort & Spa! Ta-dah!!!


Extremely inviting lobby!

The cozy atmosphere made everyone feel right at home and even sleepy :)

But I was more excited than anything. I kept gushing to Janice, “oh wow it’s so beaaauuuttiiifffuuullll!!!!”

Checking in!!

There was a hiccup with our rooms so it took awhile… So I ran around excitedly snapping pics everywhere I went ^_^

Saw this pretty plant on the check in counter and was snapping a close up of it when this Japanese guy approached me and said, “Same camera!!!!” with a big smile on his face.

He could barely speak english but he held up his own Canon 550d and gave me a thumbs up while excitedly telling his friends about it. I think he must be in his 40′s!!!

It was so cute haha.



Picture spam time!!!

ISN’T IT BEAUTIFUL????

It was so massive that I only managed to take these few pics before we had to go up to our room! The other side of the resort is even more luxurious I wish I had taken pics there :(

More pics of the resort in my next post!

Such an exquisite 5 star hotel!! I’ve been to other 5 stars but they didn’t feel quite as cozy as this, I guess it’s because this is a BEACH side resort, that’s why they have so many wooden furniture and plants and other awesome modern yet traditional touches everywhere!

I ♥ it so much.. wanted to stay there forever :)

2 more pics of the same plant from before because I love the colours!

So many different angles and ways to shoot a single plant :)

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Went up to our rooms, took a short nap and changed before we headed down to check out the beach!!

We couldn’t really do any day-time activities because by it was sunset by then. It was all good though, I managed to take some nice sunset pics!

….”And if you die out there in the sea it is so not our problem.”

lol

I was so shocked to see a horse on the beach!!!

Horse back riding on the beach by the sunset sounds awesome, it was really affordable too, but I didn’t because we were going for dinner soon and I wasn’t so sure about it…

That thing around the horses mouth looks painful and I felt a little sorry for it :(

I’m not an animal rights kind of person but I don’t like seeing animals suffer either. Does anyone know if this sort of handling hurts the horses??

Besides horse back riding, they also had ATV riding (yes on the beach!! wtf), parasailing, jet skiing, banana boating.. all sorts of fun stuff!!!

I was realllyyyyy eager to try them all but they were closing for the day.

Oh well there’s always tomorrow!!

Me and kor kor! (lol)

This would’ve been a gorgeous shot if it wasn’t for the indians behind hahah they were the ones in charge of handling all your sports-for-hire needs.

But I guess it adds charisma to the photo.

People say we look nothing alike. What do you think?

He looks a lot like my mum though… I suspect my mum picked me up from a rubbish chute when I was younger :P

And I should’ve smiled with my teeth!!! I look too fierce in that flowery sweet dress.. which is like my new fav dress ♥

Sunset on Batu Ferringhi ♥ ♥ ♥ :)

It was a pretty nice beach which is surprising because it wasn’t that far from the city!! And we all know water near the city = gross.

We went during the wet season, so the water and sand wasn’t as clean therefore no snorkeling or swimming in the sea but still passable!! Better than Sentosa.

I bet this beach would be gorgeous during summer.

That’s what you get for going out with new couples…

They’re always whispering and cuddling and kissing in front of you omfg get a room!!!

Actually they did get a hotel room but I was unfortunately sharing their room with them.

FML x 9999999999999

Wow I totally dig the sunset glow in this picture :)


You can see the sunset progression here!

A little photoshop works wonders ♥

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When it got dark, we went to have dinner!!

The hotel manager recommended a hawker center a few streets down and normally I’m very skeptical when it comes to hawker centers but that place was a

FOOD HEAVEEEEENN ♥ ♥ ♥

It was crowded, a little dirty and veerrryy hot and humid but omfg the food was completely worth it.

I was surprised to see so many white people dining there… I LOL-ed @ them because a lot of them ordered pizza instead of local delights.

Fat juicy grilled prawns!

Oyster omelette… best I’ve eva had!! Soooo hungry as I’m typing this.

Why do I always do this of myself?? I’m jealous of myself for the food I’ve eaten in the past!

Fuzzy pic of mum coz the lighting was really bad.. and coz I was hungry lol

I think this was their version of hokkien mee?

EVERYTHING WAS STUPIDLY YUMMY!!!

It’s so close to our hotel, it’s cheap, it’s totally delish and possibly the best part is that you tell them the table number you’re seated at and they BRING the dishes to you, something that almost never happens in hawker centers anymore.

I hate standing around waiting for food.


Me nom noming my Penang Laksa!!!
Very pleased indeed.

I knew people said Penang = Foodie Paradize but I did not believe them until I ate their local dishes myself.

It pwnz Singapore’s hawker for sure. It’s not coconutty, it kinda tastes like fish soup + tom yum and the noodles are soooo springy it’s like mini udon but better.

WHERE CAN I BUY SUCH NOODLES IN SINGAPORE?

Oh plzzzzzzz tell me!! The texture is to die for!! Even the penang laksa sold in Singapore doesn’t use the same kind of chewy noodles :((

Even their indian food is different!!

This butter chicken is a lot more watery and tastes like a whole new dish but mad freakin yumz as well.

We ordered a shit heap, but those were the only pics I took.. I know they don’t look that spectacular in pictures but you have to try it for yourself!!

I WOULD FLY TO PENANG AGAIN JUST TO EAT AT THAT HAWKER CENTER!

Yes, I love it THAT much.

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After one of the best meals I’ve had in ages, (I lie. I have fucking good meals all the time. The way I’m quadrupling in size says it all) we went shopping at their night market!!!

Fake branded hangbags, t-shirts, decorations, handcrafted items, everything under the sun. It was really big, and it reminded me of a mini-Bangkok!!

Colorful and bustling with life.

It was 9 or 10pm yet everything’s still open. Gotta love Asia :)

Everything you’d ever need for a getaway is a few streets away, an amazing hotel, a nice beach with lots of sea sports, cheap market shopping, cheap massage parlours and salons, night clubs and bars, great cheap food.. did I mention cheap???

It’s like a hidden gem!

I’d enjoy Penang so much more if it wasn’t for the heat O_O

That’s the problem I have with most asian countries. So hot I could melt and die.

Super pretty Japanese flower hand painted plates!! Such intricate details. After I took this pic, the owner yelled, “NO FOTOS!!!”

Most shops don’t allow photos so no more pics.

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We walked and shopped till our feet couldn’t take it anymore, and we happened to spot a massage parlour just as we were gonna go back to our hotel!!!!

Got a 1 hour massage and it was sooo gooodd!!!! ♥

Again, no pics because how weird is it to take a picture of somebody massaging your foot? Lol. But it was very well received by my aching body!

Shopping destroys your feet.

Ended the day with a trishaw ride!! I’ve never been on a trishaw before and I was pretty excited hehe.

The experience was heaps more fun than I thought! I’m gonna take it every time I see it now :D

If you don’t know what a trishaw is, it’s like this little open-air cart that you can sit in, pushed along by a bicycle that your driver is pedaling!

Great way to do sightseeing in relatively short distances :)

In Penang, trishaws are considered the “Kings of the Roads” because they usually only carry tourists and are verryyyy daring when it comes to cutting into lanes and completely blocking oncoming traffic.

They have no problem making an impromptu U-turn and stopping 10 cars dead in their tracks for their own convenience… that’s what happened to us!!

They’re almost crazy lol luckily Penang drivers are used to these sort of reckless driving and didn’t seem to mind at all.

Uncle John in a separate trishaw!

See what I said about reckless driving? LOL


Weeee so breezy and fun!!!!

Mum totally uninterested to camwhore with me because she’s intrigued by the different sights and sounds we were passing lol

Our trishaw driver and his cute umbrella!

I get so excited by the littlest things haha.

I had the biggest smile on my face throughout the ride :)


Back at the hotel!!!

It was decorated with all these flowers and twinkling nights. Very pretty in the dark~

Our driver kindly offered to take a picture for us. What a friendly guy.. Penang people are surprisingly friendly!

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Went up to the hotel room and plonked onto the bed immediately!!!

Why are hotel beds so comfy dammit.


WHAT A DAY!!!

Tiring, fun, relaxing, and most definitely enjoyable.. all at the same time.

Ordered room service (yes, we are gluttons) and then it was shower + sleepy time!!!!


ZzzzzzZzzZZzzZZzzz…………..

Had a really good night’s sleep. I woke up 3 hours later though wtf my sleeping patterns are effed up coz in Singapore I usually only sleep at 6am.

We’ve come to the end of Day 1, will update the rest of the awesome trip soon.

I love holidays, haven’t had a good one with family in ages and this was so amazing. Quality time spent together :)

xoxo,
Jess

Never good enough

“If you were in a fire, and you could only take one item in your room with you.. which one would it be?”

A random question in casual conversation that resulted in unexpected soul-searching.

…..My answer?

I’d bring along this box that I like to call my “treasure box”

It’s a pink Barbie box I’ve had since I was a little girl… It was so precious to me that I decided to keep only important things inside this special box of mine.

Which is why in case of a fire, I’d definitely save my box of memories.

Inside are old photographs…

Of people who were once a huge part of my life that I’ll never see again

No prizes for guessing which one’s me!

Ticket stubs to remember my fun days out

Dates with ex-boyfriends and old friends…

Evidence of the mischief I used to get up to

I never attended any… and I had a lot more cards than this :P

I got my very first legitimate job when I was 15!! As a promoter at International Sight and Sound exhibition… and I got my very own pass woohoo

My primary 1 student pass. Wow I was a retard back then. No wonder my crush never liked me back LOL.

My very first present from my first boyfriend.

He promised me flowers, but he said he couldn’t find any flowers and he gave me this keychain instead. Looks like 50 cents keychain but I was 13 years old and happy with it, LOL.

Awww…. who knew I was so cute back then?

I had fun looking through photographs, letters and other old memorabilia but one particular photo made a huge impact on me when I saw it.

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For a second, I didn’t recognize that girl in the picture because I sure as hell wasn’t so slim back then. Then the instant I remembered, I felt a deep sense of sadness.

….That girl wasn’t me,
but you could say she was the girl I wanted to be.

She’s my dad’s other daughter, and she was everything I was not.

I was a pretty messed up kid back then. Life wasn’t easy even though I was a child. Parents were always fighting, never had many friends, always got bullied at school…

I don’t know where I got this photo from, and to be honest I’m not even 100% sure this is her but I secretly kept this photo when I found it as a kid because I was jealous of her.

He would spend so much more time with her, and I was always distant from him.

I would hear many stories about how nice, intelligent and beautiful she was… and on my side, all I got was being reprimanded for not being good enough.

I really couldn’t help but be jealous. She seemed so perfect. And it didn’t help that I was always being compared to her.

I didn’t feel that I was beautiful or intelligent. I felt lost, neglected, and unwanted.

I was convinced there was something wrong with myself.

“Why can’t I be his first daughter? Why can’t I be beautiful and smart, like her? Why can’t I be the perfect daughter my parents want me to be? What’s wrong with me? Why doesn’t he love me as much as her?”

I didn’t have a clue who I was, or what I was meant to do… so I kept this photo, a photo of the girl whose shadow I lived in, hoping that one day I’ll be just like her.

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8 years later, I open my box of memories and I’m shocked by what I see.

I’m reminded of a bleak childhood, and I still feel sad about the situation but at the same time I’m really thankful that life is a lot better now and I’m a stronger, better person.

I still have problems with my dad, and she’s still daddy’s little girl.. but I’ve learned how to deal with that fact after all these years.

I heard she got her doctor’s degree just like my dad wanted, but she switched to media (her own interest) in the end anyway. What a waste of time.

Must have finally woken up and realized she has to live her life for herself, and not anyone else.

I had a fight with my dad recently, and he sent me a lengthy email, saying that he couldn’t accept who I was and that he gave up. It’s amusing how he said he was going to give up, as if he was ever there to guide me in the first place.

You gave it all up a long time ago.

It’s a long and complicated story, I assume you don’t need to know the details.

I cried about it for awhile, but I got over it soon after.

I wasn’t going to cry anymore for losing something that hasn’t been there my whole life.

I realized that I can’t please everyone with everything I do, and I’m done with trying to please the almighty professor who will never be pleased by anything except A stars, which is pretty much all he cares about.

Doesn’t matter if his daughter is earning good money by writing advertorials for big companies on her website that she established herself at the age of 17.

Just tell her you’re disappointed in the “foul language” she uses in her blog and that you don’t think what she’s doing is right.

Doesn’t matter if his daughter is being a good girl by actually attending school AND doing part time work. She’s not being a slut by having sex with every random guy she meets at a club / taking drugs / getting wasted every night / *insert other stupid thing to do here*.

Just tell her that she doesn’t have high values and expectations for herself.

Doesn’t matter if his daughter is pursuing her own ambition and chose media & communications to major in because that’s her interest.

Just continue to be convinced that she’s throwing her life away by mot doing anything “proper” and say that she’s wasting money, even though she’s paying for her own school fees too

Doesn’t matter if his daughter enjoys feeling confident about her looks by applying make up and dressing up fashionably.

Just tell her that only hookers do that, and that she’s a disgrace to you.

I quote him in part of his email,

Maybe I didnt understand that it is COOL to use”wtf”, F–K, and “bitching” with other girls about trivalities, and exposing your personal life/experiences to the world in your website.

Meanwhile, I do hope that you can elevate your self-esteem, not by “powder and make-up” alone, but by your intellect and integrity. I wish you all the very best in your studies and become a somebody.
You are a smart, pretty and lively girl whom I still believe can mature into a lady, a true lady with sound guiding principles and high values and expectations for herself.

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He told me I need not reply his email, but I feel obligated to respond so I thought I’d express my feelings on my blog instead.

….I am somebody, dad.

It’s just unfortunate that you never gave this somebody a chance, and you’ve already made harsh judgements before you know anything about her.

I’m someone more than make up, more than my blog – and if you only judge me based on these 2 things, then you’re no different from a random blog reader who doesn’t know any better.

Yes, as you mentioned before – it’s not all about powder / make up, it’s not all about looks.

Yet at the same time, it’s not all about power / money / career / status either. It’s not about what you’re doing for a living, I believe it’s about HOW you are living.

Are you really doing what you want to do in life? Are you even happy at all?

I may not be the somebody you wanted me to be, but I am my own person and my life is not your decision to make, especially since you’ve never been around throughout most of it.

I don’t know what is “sound guiding principles and high values / expectations” to you, but if I’m not a “true lady” just because I like to dress up and put on lots of make up, or if because I like to say FUCK a lot on my blog and I like to bitch about trivial matters, then in that case..

Who the FUCK needs to be a true lady?

Who wants to be a robot manipulated by society’s norm and the old fashioned ways of a ridiculously critical father who is always absent?

I want to be a human being, not a “true lady” by your definition.

Someone who is allowed to make mistakes,

Someone who is allowed to express herself freely even if it means using expletives

And someone who is allowed to dream and live her live as happily as possible, in whatever way she chooses.

What about being TRUE to yourself?

What about being TRULY happy, even if it means not giving a fuck what other people say or think?

Life is more than being book smart and saving money and trying to be as “normal” as possible.

I’m not doing anything wrong or doing anyone harm by living life the way I do now… but you just think it’s “not good enough” for you.

Maybe it’s time for you to look into the mirror, and realize that a successful career does not necessarily mean you are a success in life.

Life is short, dad. Live life with risks, with passion, with forgiveness and with mistakes.

I still love you, and miss you. Or maybe I just miss the idea of having a dad around in my life.

I will never be good enough for you, I know.

But I am good enough for ME, for Sam, and the rest of the people who matter.

They love and accept me for who I am.

And I am actually HAPPY living my life the way I want to.

Not many people can say that, not even you.

Here’s to all the kids whose lame parents were never there.

I’m not that girl in the picture..

And I’m damn fucking glad that I’ll never have to be.

P.S – You need not respond.

xoxo,
Jess

Chinese New Year 2010

Has it really been a year?

Seems like not so long ago, I was blogging about Chinese New Year 2009.

Sam and I just finished watching Lilo & Stitch - God I love that show. Always makes me smile, laugh, think and cry.

I still remember being 10 and begging my Dad to buy me a Stitch soft toy when we were in Disneyland. The moment I got it, I never put it down.

One of my favourite Disney movies of all time, and watching it again I was reminded of scenes and quotes that found its way deep into my heart since I was a little girl.

“Ohana means family, family means nobody gets left behind. Or forgotten.” - Lilo, Nani, Stitch

My cousin Caris is back from studying @ London!

Glad to have you part of the celebration ♥

Nothing says reunion dinner like home cooked food you grew up eating

He ain’t heavy.. he’s my noob brother

As much as I’m westernized, I still appreciate being part of cultural tradition sometimes.. Some of it ain’t so bad. I give oranges, in return I get money in blessed red packets. Seems like a fair exchange for my time :P

Kueh bangkit is my weakness! And why are people so hooked onto the TV during CNY visiting? All that’s ever on is cheesy, low budget boring chinese dramas

What did I say about Sam not being the best photographer you’d ever meet?

My female cousins… or at least 3 of them. 3 more missing. I wonder if Linda was still around, would she be standing next to us?

Chio bus!!! Hehehehe

Me and my mummy

Compare with last year’s CNY pic!!!

Welcome to the family :)

I bought his traditional Chinese outfit for him!!! I reckon it looks good on him

Hai Granny!

Played Poker. Sucked at it. Lost $10

Damn we look good together. I’m gonna print this one for the album!

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‘Til next year.

“This is my family. It’s little, and broken, but still good. Yeah, still good.” - Stitch

xoxo,
Jess

Bangkok trip September 2009

Random pics of my Bangkok trip :)

This trip was sponsored by my Mummy and Uncle John as their birthday present for me and my brother!

The last time I was at Bangkok I was only like Sec 2, so I bought a lot of stupid stuff like mickey mouse 3/4 pants wtf.

This time I bought a lot of goodies!!! That I’ll definitely be able to wear for a really, really long time.

The only place in the world you’ll see Ronald McDonalds with his palms together.. damn cute xD

Lobby of our hotel, Grande Centrepoint!

I totally recommend anyone who’s going to BKK to stay here because the location is fab, the service is great and the hotel’s restaurant is AWESOME.

Anyway I seriously fucking love hotels because the staff is at your service 24/7 and it’s nice to come home to something already made up and all clean at the end of a long day. No cleaning, just playing! (..and paying)

Checking out the hotel’s facilities :)

They have a neat playroom for kids!

There was a dad with his little baby boy, and he was just sitting there watching his baby play around.. It was a heartwarming scene. The room was all quiet when we walked in, and they kept smiling at us.

Felt a little bad for disrupting their tranquil environment, but they seemed to welcome us I even got to interact with the baby ^.^

I seem to like kids a lot more nowadays… I used to think they’re annoying and too hard to handle, but well I guess I’ve met adults who are SO MUCH more difficult to handle that kids seem harmless.

Toys in the kids room..

I never really played with toys when I was younger, especially not this sort. Never found it interesting leh. Wonder what I did as a kid, I was quite an emo kid hahhaha. In primary school I was always left out and most of my time I spent reading.

I would read the whole textbook before the school term began so I would know everything the teacher talked before and fall asleep in class. I would read Harry Potter till 4am at night in super low lighting and that’s why my degree is so effing high now.

Oh that and I once spent $800 on internet a month because it was pay-by-hour dial up and I was addicted to Neopets. LOL. The adventures of a 10 year old.

I remember “falling in love” with this angmoh guy in Neopets and the reason why my bill for internet was $800 was because I stayed up night after night just waiting for him to come online (time difference) and I think he found me creepy/annoying so he blocked on MSN which resulted in more hours spent waiting rofl.

Why am I telling you guys this??? LOL

Guys always wear the same clothes nowadays! Black berms, some Tshirt with graphic prints, slippers.. kinda like how girls typically wear high waist skirts with some random top, usually floral prints.

Yeah Rena is not very amused hahahahhahaha. I can fit in those little kids’ tunnels, wow I’m amazed

My brother being weird~

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The walls at the playground had disney stickers on them, I love!!!

Sam would like it too, we’re such Disney fangirls ;) I seriously can’t fucking wait to go to Disneyland this Christmas!!!!! I’m bouncing about just thinking about it

My fav Disney couple :)

Because it’s not all frills and I can relate to it.. Sam wants me to go rent the Belle dress costume lol! And we’ll do the Belle & Beast dance~

He sang the song “Tale As Old As Time” to me yesterday when I was feeling down.. Totally cheered me up.

A little place of haven in a concrete jungle.. I thought Singapore was a concrete jungle, then I saw Bangkok.

Looks nice but the pool was FILTHY. That’s one thing I hate about most hotels – why is every inch of the hotel spotless, but the pool always filthy and filled with bugs, leaves, etc? Shouldn’t it be the whole package?

Yay for having your own condos with realllyyyyy clean pools!

I love hotel buffet breakfasts omg yes I do!! SCRAMBLED EGGS ARE SOOOO YUMMY.

Can anyone tell me how they make their eggs so god damn creamy and yums? I know they use butter and milk/water, but my eggs still don’t have that creamy buttery taste that they have! I must learn how to cook nice scrambled eggs, because for the rest of my life I wanna have scrambled eggs + sausage + pancakes for breakfast omg win :’)



LOVE thai massages!!!



Accessories loots~
Most of them only costed $2 or so!

I bought aloooot of stuff but I decided not to blog about them all cuz abit lame la, too many and quite unnecessary.

I didn’t think the stuff in bangkok was that nice or that cheap really.. Definitely cheaper than SG but I’d rather pay the extra money than have to pay for air ticket, hotel etc.

Still like shopping in SG the best :)

I’ll never go overseas for shopping again, what a waste of time! I’d much rather hit the beach, visit historical sites or go sightseeing etc..

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Anywayyyy.

I blinged my camera!!!!! :D
It’s my first time blinging something, so I decided to use my shitty camera as a guinea pig.


This is what it looked like before…

Silver, scratched and so boring

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After:


Yay, all done!!!!!!!!

Well, not quite almost done but ALMOST. Except for some tiny pink crystals missing around the ring, ran out of small crystals need to restock :P

Spent very little on the bling, because 90% of crystals you see in the pic above, I bought in Bangkok for less than SGD 5 total!! How mad cheap is that?!

Think it looks rather good for a first-timer, only quite annoyed because I accidentally coated some crystals with glue on top so they don’t shine at all! Damn angry but lazy to re-do. 80% of the bling still shines though… Will do a better job with my next one.

Sam says he’ll bling my laptop for me!!! I has major luff for mai bf :D :D :D :D

Anywayyyy more L4D time now! Crash Course new map omfgggg woot. VERSUS! I did a hunter pounce for 40 dmg recently oh yeahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!

xoxo,
Jess

Marche + Shopping + Bakerzin with family

I have loaddss of other pics to blog but lazy to edit them so I just thought I’d blog about my day today.

Class starts at 12 15 today..

Left my house at 12 45 and on the way to school in the car, my mum suddenly asked me if I’ve taken my lunch.

Obviously not.. So I told her I’d eat in the canteen later.

2 minutes later she asked if my brother was hungry, and he said no…

Then another 2 minutes later she finally admitted she’s very hungry. LOL. Wtf.

So we made a detour to Vivo City, deciding that they’ll drop me off in school straight after lunch…

Me and my mother looked at each other and at the same time exclaimed, “Marche!”

Haahahaha Marche is love!!! Love the ambience, love the food and the variety and the whole set up..


ROSTI WITH GARLIC SAUSAGE!
(+sour cream +chilli sauce)

My favvv. Super yums!!!!

Have been craving for Rosti ever since reading about it on Fidel’s blog! Anyway, I think she’s in Taiwan now..

Have a great time babe!! Don’t forget me when you go shopping :P

Beautiful day.

I wonder why my mum always has this faraway look in her eyes when she takes photos!

More rosti!! Salmon. Yummy.

And my brother’s seafood plate thingy.. he said he’s never tried it before but he recognized the dish name from the recipe he’s using in Restaurant City and so he wanted to see how it tastes in real life.

WTF.

My brother!

…Omg there were 2 girls who sat near to us in different tables and I swear they looked SO ALIKE.

From their typical secondary school girl hairstyle to their typical geeky specs to their typical casual tees and even their facial features looked too much alike!

Very freaky! I don’t even think they noticed someone so similar was sitting next to them.. I’m pretty sure they don’t know each other.

Anyway I keep seeing a loooot of lookalikes recently, it’s creeping me out.

About 2 days ago when me and my family went to Changi Airport to have dinner, we were in the lift and my mum suddenly poked my back and said, “Is that James?”

I turned around and stared at the guy for SO LONG because he soooo fucking looks like James!

From his height/built to his hairstyle to his facial features and wtf I almost couldn’t believe my eyes.

Today, I saw a Felicia Chin lookalike in Nine West! Me and my brother kept staring at her LOL.

I think it’d be pretty cool if I could meet someone who really looked like me one day… I would so be best friends with her.

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Ok anyway after our meal instead of sending me to school, we went on a spontaneous shopping trip LOL.

From Vivo to Orchard….

I bought this super SUPERSUPERSUPER nice boyfriend shirt from Zara omg I’m so happy!

I’ve been searching for a BF shirt with the right cut and the right material for the longest time, hate the blogshop-looking kind and I can’t wait to wear this vintage-denim BF shirt out! (“v”)

My brother bought shitloads of stuff.. think he’s taking over my title of Shopping Queen now. He doesn’t get to be renamed King.

He wanted to get this blazer from Topman but his size was OOS so we drove to Wisma’s outlet to get it instead…

Then my mum told him to get this one instead because the material wasn’t as crappy as the white one. I so agree!

But he couldn’t make up his mind in the end and said, “the grey one looks so formal! like going for job interview… you buy for me la, next time i can wear for interview. i want the white one cause it looks more casual”

And my mum really ended up buying it for him!!

OMG like that also can?! Too good with words! Biased!!!! T.T

My jaw seriously dropped because each blazer costed 200+ each and thats almost 500 spent on 2 blazers, not forgetting the shoes he bought from River Island and Zara and everything.

How long have I not shopped like that?!? AM PROUD OF MYSELF!

What a waste of money! I can totally get a blazer that looks exactly the same for less than half the price.

Nowadays I never buy stuff if I know I can get the same thing cheaper elsewhere! I think I’m becoming a kiasu auntie.

Maybe it’s because I need to earn my own money to spend nowadays… so I actually think before swiping the card :P



After a whole day of tiring but fun shopping…

We settled down at Bakerzin for dinner.

Bakerzin’s MACARONS ARE THE BESTTTTTTTTT. Red and pink ones are my fav!

Halfway through our meal a girl walked up to our table and said,

Hi Jessica. I’m your blog reader.. Your blog is very nice.”

I was super shocked and only managed a feeble “Hi, thanks.” before the poor girl awkwardly left…

I don’t mean to be hostile, it’s just that I still can’t get used to random people coming up to me out of nowhere and telling me they’re my blog reader.

It’s like I really DUNNO what to do! Sometimes all I do is Stop And Stare. *sings one republic*

My brother and mother insisted I should have been nicer to the girl, so whoever you are, if I see you next time I’ll be sure to be nicer ok!!

If you guys ever see me on the streets and I seem unfriendly I probably don’t mean it D:

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Anyway, absolutely wonderful day for me in many ways.

Got to spend a lot of quality time with my bro and mum, got to buy gorgeous clothes, got to eat my fav food and got to skip boring lectures!!

Speaking of which, I should REALLY start attending classes more often..

Out of 7 days I probably only go for 2! Sick!

Gonna shower now, bye! Oh ya I just realized I haven’t uploaded pics for Father’s Day Celebration. …. Nvm too lazy, next time.

Love you Daddy!

Happy belated Father’s Day to all Daddies out there.

xoxo,
Jess
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