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my cuddly bloated hamster

HAHAHAHAH I was tweeting about Sam having a cute chubby face like a bloated hamster….

And he changed a picture he drew of us from THIS:

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TO THIS!!!!!

Bahaahhahahahaahhaah how fucking cute is my bf!!!!!

I has mucho loooooooooove for him :P

Our most recent picture! He drew the caricature above based on our outfits that day.

And my bouquet! And… a potential Valentine’s Day gift.

…I think?

xoxo,
Jess

i feel really loved and happy today

A little surprise from Sam that came all the way from the heart in Australia to my doorstep today.

“Why did you get me flowers today? Valentine’s Day is 2 weeks away.”

“Don’t you know what today is? It’s one day out of the 365 that I get to love you. You deserve flowers even when it’s not Valentine’s, but wait till you see the V’day bouquet.”

xoxo,
Jess

White Horse

Came across this song and watching the video really tugs on my heart strings..

Because every scene feels like a flashback, a replay of my life about a year ago:

Say you’re sorry
That face of an angel
Comes out just when you need it to
And I paced back and forth all this time
Cause I honestly believed in you
Holding on
And days drag on

Stupid girl,
I should have known, I should have known

[Chorus]
I’m not a princess, this ain’t a fairy tale
I’m not the one to sweep off her feet,
Lead her up the stairwell
This ain’t Hollywood, this is a small town,
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down
Now it’s too late for you
And your white horse, to come around

Baby I was naive,
Got lost in your eyes
And never really had a chance
My mistake, I didn’t know to be in love
You had to fight to have the upperhand
I had so many dreams
About you and me
Happy endings
Now I know

[Chorus]
I’m not a princess, this ain’t a fairy tale
I’m not the one to sweep off her feet,
Lead her up the stairwell
This ain’t Hollywood, this is a small town,
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down
Now it’s too late for you
And your white horse, to come around

Here you are your sitting there
Begging for forgiveness, begging for me
Just like I always wanted but I’m sooo sorry

Cause I’m not your princess, this ain’t a fairytale
I’m gonna find someone somewhere who might actually treat me well
This is a big world, that was a small town
There in my rearview mirror disappears now
Now it’s too late for you and your white horse
Now it’s too late for you and your white horse, to catch me now

Oh, whoa, whoa, whoa
Try and catch me now
Oh, it’s too late
To catch me now

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“All I want is you. Do you love me?”
“Yeah”

“Can you give me another chance?”
“….No.”

And that awful breakdown afterwards… I can almost taste the tears. That sense of relief because you’ve finally got it over and done with, feeling cheated because everything you believed in came crashing down on you, feeling lost because you don’t know what to do next.

Being cheated on is truly mindfucking and self-destruction at its best. When to convince yourself that he’s not lying to you, you end up lying to yourself instead…

Then it becomes vicious cycle that feels like it’s never going to end… falling into a bottomless pit.

“I’m gonna find someone, someday who might actually treat me well” - I thought that to myself too.. I found him sooner than expected.

My heart goes out to any girl who can relate to this song, because you don’t know heartbreak until you’ve been cheated on.

I definitely know how it feels like. And the best advice I could ever give to a girl in that situation is that forsaking your own happiness for someone who doesn’t treat you right is never worth it.

You may think that your happiness lies with him, but obviously he is not making you happy at all so happiness is somewhere else waiting for you. Go seek it.

Move on, and you’ll thank yourself afterwards.

If there was a God, I’d thank him for letting me get out of a destructive relationship and in place giving me someone who truly appreciates me for who I am.

xoxo,
Jess

two is better than one

Song on repeat on my playlist now:

Your typical teenage love song with crappy lyrics, but hey, it’s so catchy how can anyone not like it?

Two is DEFINITELY better than one ;)

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You might have noticed the lack of updates on my blog recently.

The first reason being that Sam was here with me in Singapore for the past week, so why the hell would I want to sit in front of the computer when I can be having the time of my life with him?

The second reason is that I’m currently having my exams, and I’m coping surprisingly well. I have attended very little lessons and trust me, when Jessica says she’s attended little lessons, little is an understatement.

But the lecturers give very informative exam tips which is a lifesaver! Just reading the textbook is sufficient for me.

The third reason being that I’ve kinda lost my interest in blogging.

Yes, I’ll admit it, I won’t deny it…

The only reason why I’m blogging now is because I feel the need to make my stand before disappearing, you don’t just go MIA from your blog without giving a reason I guess.

I no longer feel the insatiable urge to furiously type away at my computer eager to share my opinions, or feel the need to show off about awesome things in my life, or feel the need to use my blog as a platform to express myself anymore.

I haven’t blogged for a very long time, for a few short years that was hell of a ride. I’m terribly grateful for all the wonderful experiences being a blogger has granted me, and for those of you who have been supporting me and following my blog all the while, thank you!

This doesn’t mean I’ll stop blogging completely, it just means that my number of advertorials will drop and so will my number of posts and my participation in blogger events will cease.

I guess I did everything out of interest and curiosity at the start, including blogging and modeling. It was good while it lasted, but for me, those stages of my life are over.

Interestingly enough, I now enjoy having privacy.

I KNOW WTF.

If I could, I would blog about the most private things in my life because I like how my blog is so extremely personal but I’ve learned the hard way to keep the important things to yourself.

Then I figured, if this blog has become so commercialized, then what is the point of keeping it going?

I spend like 99.9999999999% of my time with Sam and I’m stupidly happy doing so. Everything I need to tell someone, I’ll tell him.

And I guess the reason why I started blogging in the first place was because I needed someone or something I could pour out all my emotions and thoughts to.

For now, I’m not quite as interested in blogging anymore but who knows when the blogging bug will bite me again?

I’m blogging out of commitment and boredom now, not really interest or passion anymore, quite sad..

Whatever it is, here are some pictures of the past 1 week of my life.

I look so happy cuz I just picked him up from the arrival hall haha :)

We were dining @ Coffee Club @ Changi Airport, T3.

I heart that place!! It’s 24 hours, quiet and lovely, nice food and near my place.

Staff definitely needs improvement though, they’re usually quite unprofessional and rude.

An example? I went with Nat once and this young malay waitress asked Nat “Why you not eating? You on diet ah?” -___-

She was lucky I was in a good mood.

Their caesar’s salad with smoked salmon is reallly good!!!

I had caesar salad at least 4 times the past week, I’m madly craving for one now D:

I NEVER touched salads before this, how strange.

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The next day we went to get our done, cuz I couldn’t stand his hair!!!!


Like dragonball hair wtf!

LOL @ his hair xD

The picture is so foggy-looking cuz we just came out of my very cold air-conditioned room

The salon we always go to was closed, so we just went to the one opposite it… Not that great, but beggars can’t be choosers.

I love how he lets me choose his hairstyle and his clothes! It’s so fun to go shopping with him, cuz he lets me pick out his clothes, he pays for mine and he would carry all our shopping bags hahaha.



With new haircuts!!!

I picked out a really short, neat and boyish cut for him!

I know abit like NS boy, but that’s besides the point. Sooo much more adorable like this, so long dragonball hair!

As for myself, I just trimmed my ends off and got bangs again coz my long fringe was annoying me.

Bad decision coz now my bangs are annoying me 10 times more -_-

But Sam’s never seen me with this look, so yeah. He thinks it’s really cute and I guess that’s all that is important huh T_T Some way to comfort myself



Bigass pic of my baby!!!!!!!!! (“v”)

He is now on the plane back to Melbourne…

We won’t be seeing each other for a month, depressing as hell but the only thing keeping me going and going is knowing the next time we see each other, we’ll be off to FLORIDA FOR 3 WEEKS FOR CHRISTMAS AND NEW YEAR!!!

WOOOHOHOHOHOHOHOHOHO :D

Can’t wait, it’s getting nearer so quickly, barely a month’s time!

Waiting for indian food @ my fav restaurant :)

Love that restaurant!! Also love how the staff treat me so nicely coz I’m their regular customer!

Great service makes my day~


Great food + even greater company = very happy Jessica

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Been wanting to go Karaoke for awhile now and dragged Sam to go with me! We sang till 3am LOL

He wasn’t too excited at first but I wanted to go so naninanipoopoo.

He looks happy and he said he had fun anyway!

I am awesome at karaoke if I do say so myself HAHA

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The next day… shopped till we dropped!

Walked around Ion for soooo long until we managed to find 2 perfect coats for each other.

It’s our Christmas gifts to each other, Sam’s idea actually.

He said he wanted to get something that will keep me warm in the cold when we take our private hot air balloon flight on early Christmas morning!

Plus coats just have that Christmassy vibe.



Us in our coats!!! How cuuuuuuuuuuuttteeeee?!?!

Muthafuking expensive tho!! Shopping that day costed us about a thousand SGD.

IT’D BETTER BE COLD WTF.

And if it’s not I’ll just walk around randomly at 3am to prove a point.



Ugh so adorable together, if I do say so myself (again).

YES, I am very self-complimenting today indeed. But my coat is THE SHITZ, LOVE IT TO DEATHHHHHHHHH!

Us in more normal clothes.

Oh Jeezus check out my baby’s polo that I got for him! So huggaablleeee.

:))))

Headed to Cineleisure to have Billy Bombers for dinner, Yummy!!! Then to watch 2012~

The movie was alright, pretty cool effects and some funny scenes but super cheesy and just not as good as I expected. I just thought it’d be different from your usual movies, you know? Bleh.

I’d say still go for it though.

I’m glad he doesn’t drink anymore…

He used to drink socially but came home one night pissed drunk and I got pissed off and he swore off drinking since then.

Yay for a boyfriend who doesn’t drink, doesn’t smoke and doesn’t gamble!!!!

Nom nom nom


Post abruptly ends here.

….Who needs APEC to take a picture with Obama?

That Obama burger looks really yummy. Will give it a try next time!

Till then people.

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Advertorial:

Outfit of the day!!! Black + gold, my fav~

I got my outfit from leflirtini.livejournal.com

This is the bag

How cute? I luff gold chains!!!!!!!!

If you’re interested to check out more of their other apparels, click here!

xoxo,
Jess

i miss you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!






Cuddly Creature One misses her Cuddly Two..

Shiberty cookies and milk misses DaNang cupcakes and tea!!!!!!!!!!!

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Just as I was typing this post, I received a text saying,

“MUUUUUUUUUUUUAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHH!!!! I love you that much, soooooooooo much it has no beginning or an end, it is infinite, it is everything, it is me, cupcakes and tea.”

GAHHHHHHHHH kthx now I miss him 10x more!!!

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It’s freaking 3am and I haven’t showered all day how gross :P

But with good reason! I’ve spent the first half of my day playing L4D with my L4D husband, then the second half talking to University representatives and it seems like I’m going to take my advanced diploma @ Monash University, then take my degree @ University of Melbourne.

SO EXCITING!!!

Then then then, I spent the last 5 hours researching and deciding on which hotel to stay @ Orlando with my baby, and FINALLY we’ve decided on not one hotel, but two!

There’s just too many good hotels to pick from, so we thought, why limit ourselves to one?!?!

Totally ingenious idea contributed by Sam, I wouldn’t have thought of staying at 2 hotels otherwise ;)

We’re gonna be there for 19 nights!!!!!

And I thought the previous time I stayed at Las Vegas for 2 weeks was long enough already.

Buttttt I’m going with my baby boy this time, so the fun will be endless!

We’ve decided on…


Westgate Lakes Resort & Spa

Because Sam likes the jacuzzi!

And the fact that it’s equipped with a kitchen so we can whip up home-cooked meals for each other :) …even if it just came out from a microwave lol!

And I like the fact that..

It has nice scenery and gardens for us to take slow morning walks!

And here comes my fav part!!!

“The resort includes two tennis courts, two sand volleyball courts, jogging/walking paths, a basketball court, and a miniature golf course. Rentals include boats, canoes, and kayaks for the lake and adult’s, children’s, and surrey bicycles.”

We’ll be there for 20 days, so whenever we get sick of all the theme parks and exciting stuff, we can stay in and do slow-paced stuff like just renting a boat and sail around aimlessly the whole day at the comfort of our hotel :)

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The second one is Hyatt Regency Grand Cypress

It sits on a little beach area too, with another private lake Windsong!!! How fab!!!!

Obviously more water sports and scenery :)

And both hotels are located super close to Walt Disney World + all the other stuff!


HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I JUST CANNOT STOP THINKING ABOUT IT!!!

I know, I just know it will be the best time of my life so far! Even though it hasn’t happened yet :P

But, HOW CAN IT NOT BE?!?!

Ohhh god why is it only October now? December, come quickly!!! This will be, by far my best Christmas present ever :)

We’ve decided on the hotels today, gonna start booking attractions tomorrow. CANNOT. EFFING. WAIT.

SO MUCH TO DO!

I wanna live in Orlando :(

ANYWAY proper update soon-ish, madly busy, advertorials to post, project deadlines to rush, study for exam coz school’s out in a week..

But all I can think of is L4D and Orlando and Sam -.-

Oh, and I don’t have anything to wear for the Nuffnang Blog Awards.. gg.

SEE

YA ALL!!!

xoxo,
Jess
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