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Love is when someone proves they’d achieve the impossible for you.

Happiness is what I’m feeling.

Destiny is when even luck and coincidence cannot explain how such an unlikely situation worked out so beautifully.

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Sorry for the lack of updates but I’ve been kept occupied 24/7!

I’ll take time off to stay home to blog one of these days when I can afford to.

The next time I’ll come back with proper pictures and a proper post ;)

For now, I’m more than contented living in my little bubble and the rest of the world doesn’t matter..

xoxo,
Jess

melb to sg

The day I’ve been anticipating for the past 2 months is finally here.


Tonight is THE night!!!!

I never thought this would happen to me… seriously. Now that it’s all happening, it feels so unreal.

I’m counting down every hour, every minute, every second…


With every second my heart beats faster and faster.

See you in 8 6 hours.


OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

xoxo,
Jess

Suppressed.. no more

I think the hardest part about being me is making it look so easy.

I’ve always thought of myself as an expressive person, right until this moment.

Because I have a thousand thoughts in my head and feelings in my heart that I can’t seem to put into words…


I now know why I used to cry so damn much.. because I couldn’t find another way to express myself.

Stupid but true.



For the longest time I’ve felt suppressed, trapped, helpless. As though I was screaming but nobody could hear me.

And the screaming turned into silent cries.

And by silent I really do mean silent, because from then on I never bothered burdening anyone else with my worries and troubles. Everything unpleasant I felt or thought, I kept to myself as much as possible.

Not unless I was at my breaking point and desperately needed a shoulder to lean on.

Some of you might have realized this because unhappy posts almost completely disappeared from my blog since some time ago. If you’ve been following me for a long time, you’d know I used to be a lot more whiny and PMS-y and had lots of temperamental posts.

I thought there really was no point sharing since nobody would understand.

And I wasn’t going to complain that nobody understands either, because really, who the fuck would want to read about that?

Now I’ve finally found someone who is ready to listen to me anytime I have something to say… someone who possibly understands, or at least tries his very best to.


And it means soooooooo much to me, you have no fucking idea.

I’m new to this feeling but it’s something I could get used to.

I find myself trying really hard to break down the wall I’ve built to guard myself against others.

I hate feeling vulnerable but now, suddenly, I want to.

I want to be able to trust someone whole-heartedly again. Giving all I’ve got and trusting that he won’t throw it all away.

To love like you’ve never been hurt before.

Because that’s what love is all about, isn’t it? What is love without understanding and trust? Why bother being in relationship if you’re not going to give it a hundred percent?

With me, it’s all or nothing.

That’s why I had to give up my relationship with James.


“So since I’m not your everything, how about I’ll be nothing.. nothing at all to you?” – My fav verse from my fav Beyonce song~

I don’t blame anyone around me for being skeptical about this new long-distance relationship. They’re just being concerned. I don’t think anyone knows him like I do.

What annoys me is when people judge without even making an effort to understand.



But then again, if people could understand each other so easily, he wouldn’t be this special anyway….

My head hurts. Fuck this, it’s a public holiday. And it’s my school holidays. So… End of emo post, shall resume happy posts soon.

I’m still a happy person, definitely, but happy people have their troubles too.




They just make the most out of what they have.



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Nothing like L4D to take my mind off things. Time for some zombie blasting!



I conclude : My best friends are Bill, Francis, Louis and Zoey.

xoxo,
Jess

Happiness

Happiness..

Doesn’t come by easily or as often anymore these days.

But today, I was truly, genuinely happy.

I woke up with a big silly grin on my face that I absolutely couldn’t wipe off, from when I was at home and until the time I walked into class to take my exam.

Even when I was furiously scribbling away, I couldn’t help but stop and smile to myself every once in awhile.

It never hit me harder what difference a little happiness can make in life.

All of a sudden..

I laughed heartily at every little thing that was remotely amusing, and when things kinda went wrong I would simply shrug it off.

I wasn’t bothered by the fact that I was about to sit for an exam I didn’t study much for, I couldn’t even say I was stressed at the very least.

I sang sad songs as though they were happy songs in the car.

I smiled at as many strangers as I could (without looking too much like a psycho)

Even Singapore’s weather wasn’t unbearable anymore, instead I loved the warm golden rays shining down on me.

Normal, average things brought me so much satisfaction.

As cliche as it sounds, everything was strangely beautiful.

Nothing, almost nothing could bring me down at that moment in time.

I felt like I could take on anything that life throws at me.

Whoever knew happiness could be so empowering?

I realized that no amount of convincing yourself that you are happy will do the trick.

You don’t decide to be happy, when you ARE happy you will DEFINITELY know it.

Otherwise, you’re just being an optimistic person.

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A little goes a long way.

All this, because of you…

You make such a difference that you don’t even know.

Thank you for making me so happy.

Even if it may be just for today. And for everything else we’ve had…

It means so much.

xoxo,
Jess
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