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this isnt goodbye, this is only hello



I’m back from Phuket!!!

It was a crazy whirlwind of fun and drama, I wish I had more time to spend there.. Thailand is so beautiful. No worries though, I’m going to Bangkok in less than 2 weeks for shopping and some fun in the sun~

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Life’s been as good as it gets.

I just reached home from sending Sam off to the airport, he’s on the plane to Melbourne now.. awwwww.

I’m going to miss my cupcake very much, but I’m not that upset because he’s flying back here in about 17 days to spend my birthday with me!! Can’t wait~~~

“This isn’t goodbye, this is only hello”

One of my fav things he’s ever said to me.

He’s good with words, sometimes too good that he leaves me breathless and speechless and no one ever leaves Jessica speechless because I always have something to say.

But when Sam holds me and looks me in the eye and tells me things my heart longs to hear, I find myself at a loss of what to say and on rare occasions I would actually tear because I’m just that moved.

Soppy as hell but true.

I would blog about my Phuket trip now but I still have leftover pictures from when I couldn’t finish the post in time before I flew to Phuket, so I’ll finish that up today~

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Us on the Singapore Flyer!

My 2nd time going on it, the first was some LG event like 2 years ago or something. Didn’t blow me off my feet like it did before.

I guess a lot of things lose their novelty after only the first try.


Didn’t really matter since I had something else to blow me off my feet.

Needless to say, I still had plenty of fun and I spent most of the time taking pictures and laughing at god knows what

And something somewhat juvenile but I love it anyway..


Love the city lights, buildings and highway in the background :)


My fail Casio camera.. That cam is so shit but I use it often cos the shutter speed is really fast and it’s light + compact.

My Canon e1 takes wayyy better pictures but the shutter speed is slow, plus it’s bulky, heavier and it runs on freaking AA batteries! I like both but the latter is less convenient though of much better quality.

The AA batteries function come in handy during traveling though, a lifesaver for when you’re a forgetful tard like me who always forgets to charge her devices in time.

Back to topic…

After our ride on the world’s largest observation wheel, we decided to go for a 15 minutes Fish Spa treatment which was one floor below, just for shits and giggles.

Happy me, quite hyped and excited before everything began but little did I know..



HOW FUCKING DISGUSTING IT IS!!!
It was definitely definitely definitely one of the most disgusting experience in my LIFE.

I was really scared to put my feet into the water even though I’ve kinda always wanted to try it. I mean, feeding your feet to fish is gross to the max but you’d wonder how it’d feel afterall!

Take this from me, it feels exactly like what you’d imagine tons and tons of slimy fish nibbling and sucking on your feet would feel like,

except WORSE.

I finally managed to put like half of my foot into the water after like 10 minutes of shrieking and cursing and putting my toe into the water and taking it back out again.

Too many damn fishes that it’s damn scary, the moment you stick your foot in they attack like crazy and the sensation is just unbearably ticklish and gross.

The worst thing is when you lift your foot out of the water, there’s still tiny fishies squirming around on your foot or stuck inbetween your toes.

OMGWTFISH. I never want to touch fishes ever AGAIN.

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Moving on… … .. .. . …… ………………………

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Random pic:



Our neoprints!!
Yay. Can’t believe I dragged him to do it LOL.

Best neoprints I’ve ever taken throughout my twit life, look at how creative they are! *beams*

My fav is the top left one, so cute with the astronaut and alien and our silly poses! The one on the top right is now tucked neatly into his wallet..

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The “let’s save your back” day



Happy day!!!
(although everyday was a happy day for me for the past 2 and a half weeks)

And why was I so happy?

For the longest time I’ve been whining and complaining about how much my back ached like an old woman almost everyday, and he asked me why it ached so much and I said I didn’t know..

Until he told me it could be the lousy chair I was sitting on 24/7 and I realized he was right!

I spent a lot of time on that chair in front of the computer and the chair was so crappy it forced me to have crappy sitting posture too.

At that point in time he was still in Melbourne, and he casually said he’d buy me a new chair when he comes here but I never gave much thought about it then. Didn’t expect him to keep his promise when he came to Singapore :’)

I love how he notices the littlest things. I love how he goes the extra mile. I love how he always keeps his promises. Means so much to me.


Hehehehe another heart picture to add to our collection!

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So one fine afternoon, we went to Ikea to get me a new chair and have meatballs.



OMG YUMS!!
My fav. Extra brown sauce and jam plzzxzxz.

He really liked it too which is always a plus, since he likes to eat a lot of the food that I like too, and we feast like pigs!

First chair I set my eyes on.. and almost wanted to get it immediately because it was so much more comfortable than the one I had previously.

Thank god I decided to look around more instead, because I found a much better one!!!

Browsing for furniture together… wtf like married couple wtf!

After much deliberation, Decided on this baby “Verner”!!!

It’s an office chair, and I don’t like office chairs because they are usually super ugly but this one is actually quite nice in white.

I needed something with adjustable length, armrest and enough backrest and something soft and comfortable enough, and this one fulfills all my requirements… yay!

My knight in shining armour..

Buying me a chair to save my back :’) Sigh.

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Took a cab back home and it was time to assemble the chair!

Not that I actually did any of the work of course…

Yay for efficient and strong and hardworking boyfriends!!! Muah muah~~

Using my lappy and camwhoring while he was working on it :P

Hmmmm still not done yet babe?!

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A few final touches… and his hard works turns into…

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My favouritest chair in the world!!!!

The queen on her throne, LOL.

Like my smurfette tee?! Another gift from him too :’)

As I’m typing this, I’m wearing the same tee and sitting on the same chair!!

Sooo comfy. Luvluvluv.


Goodbye you evil transparent lousy cheapo chair!!!! You shall hurt my back no more.

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Went for dinner with Sam & my brother & their friends after that..

I did mention that my brother and Sam are gaming partners right? Quite odd and new for me to go out with my bro & his friends & Sam cuz they all know each other and my bro never talked to my ex-es and I never talked to his friends either!

In the cab.. my bro & bf lol wtf

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Had dinner @ this place called Brewerkz or something, can’t really remember~



The older we get, the less we look alike

Bought tickets for The Proposal after dinner. 12 tickets, took up the entire row~

The show wasn’t as good as I expected but I suppose it was decent enough, with a few redeeming funny moments. Otherwise it was actually moderately boring.

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Had a lot of time to kill before the movie so we headed to the arcade and Sam couldn’t keep his hands off this machine!

He didn’t get the soft toy even after more than 10 tries cuz obviously the machine is a phoney!!! Meant to make money out of people with too much ego to let go of it~~

Me with a stupid concentration look on my face playing the basketball game with my bro’s friend’s gf lolol

Let’s see how strong my bf is…

Yay! High score!

Some geek lovin’

My brother = Vexi = Street Fighter Geek = Geek in General

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My holiday ended and class resumed on the 24th & I brought Sam along with me!



Painfully dull lectures…
uptight lecturer makes it suck even more

Left class halfway to have our own lunch @ Ikea (yes again) which is thankfully really near my school!

They were very generous with the amount of sauce & jam.. happy Jess :’)

He made my name with some metal coil wrapper~ Reminds me of wire art

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Headed back to super sian lecture…

Big ass pic of my face

More self-lovin’.

Last picture :P

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I used to daydream about Sam in class, gushing to my friends sitting beside me about him and doodling hearts and writing his name on my textbook…

whoever knew one day he’d be sitting right next to me during my lecture and doodling on my textbook?!



Awwwww how sweet is my darling bf?!? ^_______^

My heart still melts when I flip the pages of my textbook~

Why “I think” I love you? .. Long story that only he & I will know and a little too personal to explain.

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The only thing better than having your boyfriend accompany you to class is…

Having him give you a foot massage in the meantime!

That felt stupidly good.. especially since I was freezing and his hands were warm :)

Speaking of massages, I’m really really itching for a thai massage @ Sabai Jai!

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After class we headed to Jurong Point to meet his friend.. Took the MRT. Something I haven’t done in agessss Sucks how people push around like mad and you can never get seats. Reminded me why I don’t take public transport.

I picked out this pair of sunnies for him.. I think they look really good on him!

Figured it looked fairly decent on me too, surprisingly, so we bought two and we had awesome matching sunnies


…Until I lost mine during my Phuket trip :’(

When I fell into the sea, I bobbed back up to the surface but my sunnies didn’t.. Long story but I’ll tell you about when I actually do blog about Phuket.

So saddddd I really liked that pair of sunnies like a LOT. A pair of sunglasses is replaceable but the sentimental value isn’t

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…Walked around the mall and bought random stuff like hairbands and flower pins and a yellow ducky tissue box holder.

Yup, this is my yellow ducky tissue box holder everyone.

Hehehehe my room is filled with sooo many soft toys & other cute stuff! Makes me happy whenever I look around.

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The next morning, he surprised me with a bouquet of roses and I didn’t know where to place them because I don’t have a vase that’s big enough…

And so he did this. LOL.

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One of the last few days before we went to Phuket..
He went to school with me again~

In the lift

In the car

In class

I saw this pushcart in school selling alot of super adorable soft toys and a really big pig caught my eye..

I don’t usually find pigs cute but this one is exceptionally fluffy and soft and cute and nua-looking!

(wow he looks stupidly dark here for some reasom)

He bought it and carried it back home and we named it Penguin (don’t ask)

Something moderately funny about a man shamelessly carrying a soft toy pig that’s half his size walking around in a school and country that isn’t even his… :P




HAHAHA awww so0o0o0oo cute!
(“v”) My babies

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And finally….



Last picture of the day!

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A blink of an eye and 2 and a half weeks have passed already... It felt so long while he was here, but now that he’s gone I feel like time’s passed so fast.

I’ve changed a lot during this period of time, and I don’t think anyone else has realized this except him.

The most amazing & intense 2 weeks EVER.

I’ve become more independent and mature and I’ve changed my mind about a lot of things, mostly for the better.

I have so much more faith now.

I never thought someone could make me this happy.

Sometimes I still can’t believe all of this is happening… It’s so crazy. So unreal.

In a fucking great way.


….Who would have ever thought?

It’s funny how from simple things, the best things begin…

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I know I’ve said this already but I’ll say it again…

Life’s been as good as it gets... But something tells me

it’s just going to keep on getting better :)

xoxo,
Jess

some of the amazing times we’ve had so far

Decided to blog today no matter how busy / tired I am, since


I’m going on an impromptu weekend getaway trip

to Phuket with Sam tomorrow, YAY!!!

Yesterday, my mum was saying that staying in SG for 2 weeks would be very boring for Sam, and suggested going to Malaysia, but I decided on Phuket instead since I’ve always wanted to go back there after my first short visit.

Today, I confirmed everything and booked the tickets online..

And tomorrow, we’re flying off to Thailand!

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Life’s been one hell of a roller coaster ride for me..
but now in a great way.

I’ve been spending every single day with Sam since the 14th August, and too much has happened to actually blog about everything in detail so here’s just random pictures and some captions!


Us at the Night Safari!

Somehow it was a lot more boring this time, even though the company was great and I loved going there when I was younger. But the keyword is younger… a lot of things easily fascinated me back then.

I think I’ve seen a fair bit more in life now, so the novelty wears off quickly.

The animals were really smelly and kinda boring. I also couldn’t see shit in the dark and most of the animals were not in their enclosures. LOL.

Nonetheless, I still had fun because the company is more important than the location and activity!

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Us @ my current fav indian restaurant @ FEP!!!

We’ve been there for dinner 3 times in the past week, crazy or not! I’m glad he likes indian food too. He’s been feeding me like CRAZY, we feast like pigs every single day… to my absolute delight of course.


(him @ the same restaurant on a different day)

Been happily eating a stupidly massive amount of good food, the only downside is I’ve put on 2 kg already. T_T

Whoever commented that I’ve lost weight can now take back your compliments… Time to go swimming more often once he’s not around!!!

Been having mad cravings for Swensens’ yam ice cream… So we went to Changi Airport’s 24 hr Swensens to have supper & dessert but to my utmost displeasure, they told me that they don’t have yam ice cream anymore!

WTF WTF WTF!!!!

I reckon that’s their best flavour, after butterscotch & cookies and cream!

I don’t usually like yam flavoured stuff but Swensens makes them really gooodd.

Half satisfied my cravings with my other fav Apple Crumble in the end… you might recognize the same dessert in another pic from my earlier post – now you know how much we eat!!!

We were told that only Ion’s Swensens has the yam flavour left, so we headed there another day…

Not very impressed with the mall & its shops so far, pretty much like every other mall.. but I do think the exterior design is unique and pretty cool!

What’s the point of having so many malls in Orchard when they all carry the same brands eh?

Had a hard time finding Swensens @ Ion, and when we finally got there we learned that their Yam flavour was only available for their dessert buffet which costed $19.90.

Wtf. Wanted to leave but Sam persuaded me to stay in the end because he knows how crazy my cravings get… awww.

Round 1 of my dessert buffet!

3 scoops of yam ice cream woohoo. Maltesers, honey stars, marshmallow sauce and butter scotch sauce.. GOOD STUFF!

Round 2!!!

7 scoops of yam ice cream, pwnage :D

Total 10 scoops.. but their 1 scoop is pretty small in comparison to a normal scoop. Was so stupidly bloated after a heavy indian food meal + dessert buffet that I had a hard time getting home.

Felt like I was about to explode and my stomach actually hurt from eating too much!

Note to self – never do that again.

Went for Jap Tepanyaki buffet dinner with my bro & Sam & their friends just now at this place called Daidomon (I think?)… Not really a fan of jap food but Sam wanted to give it a go so I tagged along.

Had this beef sashimi thingy with egg yolk, sounds damn disgusting but it actually tasted pretty good! Well for the few bites at least.

After a couple of mouthfuls it just tasted like slimy-raw-beef-gummy-bears.

The grilling part was actually quite fun but quite painful at the start cuz we were all starving but you have to wait for the food to cook.

All in all I’d say the food was not bad, but $65 per head is way too expensive for the quality and I’d probably never be back there again.

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While we’re still on the topic of food…

Sam knew how much I loved butter chicken, and he suggested that he’d try cooking me some and in return I’d make him dessert!

Him writing down the ingredients to buy from a random recipe on the internet

The recipe if anyones interested :P

Him picking out groceries!

I love going grocery shopping with him even though I’ve never bothered to do it otherwise… it’s so much fun and it feels like we’re a married couple LOL.

Stuff we bought

He said, “when we’re married you’re never going to do the grocery shopping… look at how much random crap you always get!”

:P

Start of the making of our butter chicken…

Halfway through! After adding some spices~~

Him painstakingly chopping almonds into little tiny bits because we were supposed to use ground almonds and all we could find was almond wholes

Almost done…

Added almonds & red food colouring~

Lots of butter & onions!! Yuummm.

Finally… frying the mixture and chicken together

HAHAHAH.

I reckon it still looks & tastes pretty good though. I think our main problem was that we forgot to add the cinnamon in & other herbs / spices.. Oh well it still tasted delicious (truth!), plus it was the hard efforts of my sweet bf which is the main point!

Him frying the sausages for breakfast I blogged about previously..

MY BF BUYS GROCERIES AND COOKS FOR ME!

He also flies across oceans to be with me and a whole bunch of other stuff. =P

Does yours?!?!

Sam still surprises me everyday and constantly blows me away… He’s the best bf you could ever ever imagine :)

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My turn…

I try to bake French Cheesecake, one of his fav desserts ~

Stupid amount of cream cheese needed. Reminds me why I never touch cheesecakes usually

Apparently I was supposed to whip the mixture until it became light / fluffy, but it was wayyy too hard so he ended up doing this…

HAHAHAH nastyyyyy!!!

Too much fun :’)

Lol idk he came up with this pose

The look of concentration on my face -_-”

And the end result, after freezing for hours~~

My bf draws on cheesecakes. Hmmmm.

Okkkkkkkkkk I really wanna finish up this post and post all the other photos I have, but Sam’s nagging at me to go to bed now cuz it’s 2am and I have to leave the house at 5 later and I haven’t had any sleep yet!

I’m off to catch a nap now before flying off to Phuket.


OMG I can’t believe I’m going to Phuket in a few hours!!!

So suddenly and so awesome :) :) :)


STUPIDLY HAPPY.

See you guys soooonnn

xoxo,
Jess

i love waking up to you

Every morning I wake up to him lying right next to me, usually having a soft smile on his face and looking into my eyes.

This morning was slightly different.

Woke up this morning to a bouquet of beautiful red roses in his hands.


He smiled at me, and I smiled back. We exchanged a warm hug.

When asked what the flowers were for, he replied, “Do I need a reason? You deserve them.”

He told me that the 6 roses meant for each time I’ve said “I love you” to him.

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Woke up a few mornings ago to find that he bought groceries to make breakfast for me.

Today, he bought breakfast while I was still asleep again.. Some bread and pastries.

When I suddenly mentioned that I preferred sausages & eggs for breakfast, he went to get them and he’s making them for breakfast tomorrow.


I could really, really get used to waking up to this. (“v”)

6 more days and I’m dreading the time he would leave already.

xoxo,
Jess

i think i love you, stranger.

OMG.

For the first time in 8 long long long days, I’m having some alone time. Just me, myself and my laptop in my room, all quiet except for soft songs playing in the background.

I’ve been spending the last 8 days with Sam, my new boyfriend, as you guys should already know about since he’s basically been the main topic of my blog recently…

These past 8 days have definitely been the longest 8 days of my LIFE. Each day felt like a week itself because so much was done in a day that is usually accomplished in a week.


Anyway I honestly have no idea how or where to begin blogging about what a whirlwind my life has been recently.

Most of these things are either too personal or too complicated to explain, and when I get too busy, blogging about them becomes unimportant.

This is very new and strange to me because usually when something moderately interesting happens to me, the first thing I’d wanna do is blog about it but unfortunaltely I’ve lost that urge.

I’ve become such a different person… I think it’s bloody amazing how things can change so drastically and quickly within such a short period of time.

In good ways and bad, but I’m just thankful that life is awesome right now.

Ok…

Hmm… hmmm.

Here goes.

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Sam is my new boyfriend. Sam is 23 years old. Sam lives in Melbourne but flies to SG to be with me so we’re in a long-distance relationship.

Sam is also known as Cupcake as you might have read about before in my previous posts which is my nickname for him.

Here is the first proper picture of Sam to ever be posted on my blog.

For starters, I don’t care what you guys think about how he looks.

You can call him ugly, old, weird, geek, or whatever lame insult you can come up with because I really don’t give a flying fuck. I love him all the same, for who he is.

I’ll admit that his appearance is not his best attribute but that’s the whole point. What good would he be as a boyfriend if all he had was good looks?

If all I wanted was a hot bod and good looks, I’d have a fling and get it over and done with. You don’t commit to appearance, you commit to love.

You don’t love someone’s appearance, you fall in love with their character and personality.

Physical beauty will attract the opposite sex but only inner beauty will make them stay.

Have I said enough?

Same situation for me, I’d be pretty damn pissed off if someone was with me just for my looks.

There is always more than meets the eye..

Sam is an amazing person, even though you guys don’t and can’t see it. Here’s a list of more than good enough reasons why I love him even though he’s not hot like Zac Efron (the 2nd guy I wanna be with after Sam)

What I thought was impossible, he made possible. He proved me wrong.

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What do I mean?

You see…

Sam and I met in a very bizzare way.
It was a Saturday afternoon (I think) and I was majorly bored at home.

I’d just downloaded Left 4 Dead on Steam on my laptop using my brother’s account because I was cheapskate and didn’t want to have to buy my own account.

So I browsed through his friends list, and randomly clicked on this guy who happened to be online, and his name was DaNang.

I asked him if he wanted to play L4D with me and he asked who I was, and I said I was Jeremy’s sister and he didn’t believe me because he thought Jeremy’s sister doesn’t play games and a whole bunch of other stuff you don’t need to know.

Long story cut short, after awhile we played L4D together.

Seems normal enough… Until we continued talking even when our L4D games ended. We wouldn’t hang up our voice chats online, and instead, we kept talking about whatever for a really long time.

What was even stranger was the fact that I found myself unusually drawn towards this person I knew nothing about.

Let me share with you guys a post that I wrote in my blog but never published because it was too personal.

This post was written on 21/05/09.

“Have you ever fallen in love with a stranger?

I don’t know you, but it feels like I do. I just want to talk to you all day about nothing much at all because it takes me to another place, somewhere far away from where I am.

I love the sound of your voice. It’s strangely comforting.

I even love hearing you laugh.. but I’ve known you for less than 100 hours.

You are someone I’d love to get to know better, someone I’d very much like to spend time with.

I don’t even care that much who you are in real life or how you look like.

I spend the whole day thinking about you and the next time I get to talk to you.

Sadly, I don’t know what this means.. Like I said, I don’t even know you, and the possibility of us ever meeting almost doesn’t exist so I find myself creating a fantasy.

“White noise”, he calls it.

I think I love you, stranger.”

I think that was one of the most personal out of like the 800ish posts I’ve done.

Such raw, heartfelt thoughts that didn’t make any sense back then but makes perfect sense now.

Ok, it probably doesn’t make sense to you right now still, so let me carry on…

I had really strong feelings towards this DaNang person, but I never told him. He’d probably think I’m crazy. I probably was slightly cuckoo but love is always a little crazy.

We continued to talk almost every single day without fail, and with each day our voice conversations got longer and more frequent and more personal.

At first I thought I was probably just infatuated with someone interesting I came across online, but soon enough I found myself enjoying our conversations a little too much that it started to get to me.

It dawned on me that I was possibly in love or crushing pretty damn hard on someone that I only know of virtually.

Someone I’ve only played online games with, someone I’ve never met before in real life and someone who already felt like my best friend.

It didn’t make sense. It really didn’t.

So I told a few of my closer friends about him, and they all pretty much told me I was dreaming and that I should forget about it.

Most reluctantly, I tried to forget about him.

I went on dates with other people but somehow, just somehow, I always ended up talking to him again.

We would talk for at least like 10 hours through the mic everyday. We talked about everything and nothing.

All I really wanted to do was to stay at home, talk to him and play stupid online games with him.

Another long story cut short, basically the both of us knew we liked each other almost from the very beginning but never really faced up to the fact, but one fine day I somehow managed to get him to admit that he likes me because we had an online fight over him quitting MapleStory and not talking to me anymore.

Yes, I know, sounds stupidly funny and unbelievable.

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After many late night promises, here we are now, together somehow. Because he kept his promises.

And we took a leap of faith in something that everyone else thought was stupid and crazy.

It’s blossomed into something so incredibly beautiful that we’ll be having the last laugh now.

Still feels quite unreal to me.

I won’t deny that a part of me was still quite skeptical about it in the past. But he’s changed my mind about so many things.

Loving someone you “barely know” is so much easier when they treat you like the queen of the world. When they make all your worries disappear, when they make you grin from ear to ear and they make you find the world a better place.

When nobody was there for me, Sam was.

When nobody understood me, Sam did.

Nobody appreciates me better than him.

I feel like the most beautiful girl in the world when he tells me so, because I can tell he really believes what he says… in that case, how can I not?

He’s done and changed so much for me, it’s mind blowing. It really is.

I’ve never been loved this much by someone who isn’t family.

For the first time, I’m not the one putting in more effort in the relationship and I’m being pampered and doted on to the max.

It’s too good to be true, and the best part is that is IS true.

Every morning when I wake up next to him, I think to myself,

Oh my god, it’s the fucking L4D guy.”

Then I smile, and kiss him on the cheek.

I’ll tell you more about all the fun I’ve had in the past week next time, and I’ll be back with many pictures.

Lots of love…

xoxo,
Jess
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