Mega ranty post incoming!
….So I don’t know if you guys already know this, but I’m moving out soon. In fact, very VERY soon. The house I’m staying in has been sold and we’ve gotta be outta here by 14 November latest because that’s when the new tenants will be moving in. And all of our personal belongings have to be shifted and cleared as well…. That does not leave me with a lot of time!!! I haven’t packed or even DECIDED on a new place yet!
For the past 2 weeks, there’s only been one thing on my mind: Shifting houses.
It’s possessed my mind entirely and has been draining my mental energy. When I wake up, I think of shifting houses. Before I go to sleep, I think of shifting houses. In fact, some times I have nightmares in the middle of the night that I don’t end up finding a good place to rent and I’m forced to sleep on a bench in Bedok Reservoir where I will then get murdered and my body thrown into the water.
I get so stressed out about it, some times I curl up into a fetal position in a corner of my bed and cry. I really don’t like shifting houses and having to leave what I call home behind for some place else I don’t care for. Anyway. My house (not mine anymore, and technically I never owned it myself) was sold because it’s getting pretty old / and the pipes are all leaking, so much that there’s a holy coming through the roof.. She wants to get rid of it before things go to shit around here. (Which frankly, it kind of has, so different from its former glory a few years ago le sigh) She found an interested buyer in our unit and got rid of it the first chance she could. Of course, she made a lump sum of money in the mean time because she sold it for almost double the price she bought it for.
In the mean time, she’s bought a new HDB flat that will supposedly finish construction in 2014… and she’s invited me to go live with her. Right now she has another house of her own that she stays in when she’s in Singapore (she travels a lot) but she lives with her partner there, and it’s a pretty small place which won’t fit Sam, my brother and I. Besides, I think its weird if we bunk in with her partner in the same place, and it is also not right for Sam to move into my mum’s place with me. I mean he’s 26 years old now… we (he) should be getting our own accommodation. But of course I won’t leave him to rent a place on his own in Singapore, when he came here from Melbourne just to be with me. That’s just stupid and mean of me if I were to do it.
So until the new HDB in 2014 is ready to live in or until we’re independent enough to figure out our own long term housing, Sam, my brother and I will have to find a place to rent. Don’t ask me why my brother is also living with us… long story that I don’t wanna go into. So I’ve spent literally days of my time just browsing propertyguru’s website trying to find a suitable place to rent. It is extremely tiresome having to browse endless pages of listed properties, calling up annoying, manipulative and pushy agents (some are helpful, professional and kind though), setting up house viewing appointments in my already-busy-enough schedule, going down for numerous house viewings at godforsaken locations not easily accessible by public transport & raking up insane taxi fares…. Gawd. The worst part is, rent everywhere is so motherfucking expensive. Singapore is overpopulated as shit so property pricing is honestly through the roof.
To rent a 3 bedroom normal condo (not even a NEW or NICE or GOOD condo) just ANY condo will easily cost you $3500 these days. We need a 3 bedroom unit because there’s 3 adults. You may ask, “Why don’t you save money by getting a 2 bedroom unit instead? Sam & you one room, your brother one room.”
No. Just no. Sam’s been living in my tiny room the past year and honestly its been hell. We have a lack of personal space AND storage space. I can barely fit my clothes into my wardrobe, how am I supposed to have space for his stuff too??? And there’s two computers + computer chairs on one tiny desk in my room right now!!! I can’t wait to have MY OWN room, finally. And when I’m angry at him and banish him from my room, he doesn’t have to sleep on the couch no more… he can have his own room too, lol. Living with a partner in one tiny room is very different from having them stay over once in awhile. Back to my point.
RENT IS THROUGH THE ROOF. I’ve seen so many lousy condos (horribly maintained and just ugh, no better than a HDB, some HDBs have much nicer interiors and cost way less) and it kind of breaks my heart to think that I’d have to live in that shit hole AND pay $3500 a month for it (cost will be split between the three of us.) I don’t wanna live in a HDB because I’m a spoiled brat who has lived in one of the nicest condos in Singapore for the past 7 years so to ask me to suddenly move into an old HDB flat I think I may just break down & cry (which I’ve mentioned I’ve already did a few times haha). The condo I am staying in right now means a lot to me. To me, this is not just a house, this is the place I’ve spent the most important years of my life in. My life has changed so incredibly much since the day I moved into this place but the only thing that hasn’t changed is home itself, and I can remember the first time I moved here like it was just yesterday. Before my mum bought this condo, we weren’t doing very well, and had to live in some less than desirable conditions like putting up at a family friend’s place longer than we would’ve liked to stay…. I’d never stayed in a place for longer than 3 years and I couldn’t really call any of the places “home”, when some times I lived with strangers. Savannah is the only place in the world I think of when I think of home. I’ve invited countless number of friends over to my place because I am always so proud to show it off. Some people may not like inviting guests over but I absolutely LOVE it. I think of all the memories made here, with my old secondary school friends, my ex boyfriend, friends that I haven’t seen for years and will probably never see again, the number of times I’ve cried and buried my head into this pillow on this bed and the number of blog entries I’ve churned out sitting in this very same spot at my computer table for the past few years…. It’s all so very nostalgic….. I can’t imagine I have to leave it behind so soon. I want to embrace change with open arms, but I’m a coward. Once I’ve found a good thing, I don’t want to EVER let it go, even if there’s a chance there might be something better waiting for me out there. I just want to cherish what I have right now.
My condo (for the next 2 weeks at least) has the prettiest grounds ever. Walking around it makes my heart content. It’s by no means the most luxurious, but it is homely, cozy and absolutely unique. It’s themed like an African safari and there are mini waterfalls, a gorgeous pool, a fake volcano with a fun water slide, elephants + giraffes + rhino leopard statues……. I am honestly so lucky to have lived here the 7 years that I did. 7 years on and I’m still wowed and awed every time I take a walk downstairs. It’s like I’m living in a resort permanently. I’ve got the nicest next door neighbours that I’m so gutted I will not be able to see often any more. I wanted to watch the little two kids next door, Sarah and Isaac grow up. I wanted to spend many more Sundays with them baking, cooking, eating, playing and laughing. I don’t understand why selling the house couldn’t wait another few years, but I grew tired of arguing with my mother and questioning her decision. I guess its her decision, not mine, and there wasn’t anything I could do about it, even though I tried to prolong it for as long as possible. I don’t think anyone else knows how I feel about living here because they never had the experiences I did. Some of my fondest memories include the simplest ones like taking a spontaneous morning with my brother and Sam or just having a long heart to heart chit chat by the pool with a girlfriend I haven’t seen in a long time and miss so much. Am I being completely ridiculous and over dramatic by saying I feel like I’m giving up a part of me? It is so scary to move on and to be suddenly “evicted” by this. Its not exactly sudden because I’ve had many months notice…. but still…….. I could never truly wrap my head around the idea.
Then it dawned on me and hit me like a brick. The time has come, and the time is now. All good things come to an end some day. Time to step out of my comfort zone and into the real world, where lodging isn’t free and mama isn’t always there to shelter you.
Back to house hunting. Eventually I put aside my pride a little and went around sourcing for HDBs too instead of just condos, thinking I’d save a lot on rent. Boy was I wrong. Some lao pok old HDB also asking for $3.5k!!! Not even nice, not even close to the MRT or anything. Seriously wtf it makes no sense at all. I was almost on the verge of giving up, but by some miracle…
I managed to find two very very attractive units that have very reasonable rent. I was so relieved and happy when I viewed the houses, you have no idea. My only problem now is that I can’t decide which one is better for me (and the people living with me.) And I may need some second opinions. Let’s evaluate the two units which I have to choose between by this weekend. I’ll list everything I like about it, and everything I don’t.
1) Yishun, condo, asking $3k/month. Fully furnished (we’re leaving 90% of our furniture behind for the new tenants ugh mum’s decision that’s why rent is more ex)
Positive factors: It reminds me of my current place.
Nothing can match up to my dear Savannah ever, but its still nice and has a hugeeee inviting looking sparkly pool. Well maintained and the interior of the place is cosy. The moment I walked in, I could honestly see myself living here (at least for the next year or two). I didn’t feel this way about any other units I’ve seen. It wasn’t fancy but it didn’t need to be. It was homely, simple, and I like the general design / feel of the whole place the most out of all the house viewings I’ve been to. Master bedroom will be mine and the size is good. Comes with a modern attached bathroom with a bathtub, plus points! Built in oven and decent sized kitchen that hasn’t been used much, another bonus.
Negative factors: It’s in Yishun.
My bro and Sam work at Shenton together and they both need the train to get to work. To get to the train, they needa take the shuttle bus from the condo to the train, and then 13 stops on the train. That will take approximately one hour to get to work… Kind of far for them. :/ Location wise was also rather inaccessible & secluded because there isn’t a bus stop outside the condo, you’ll need to walk a fair bit and there is no shops nearby at all. It’s kind of in the middle of nowhere. The location doesn’t bug me as much, because I stay home a lot and the only place I go to often is Orchard and Somerset which is all along the red line anyway and I cook quite often at home, but I’m thinking about Sam and my bro. To get to work will not be an easy thing everyday… Also, if anyone wants to collect cakes, I wonder if Yishun is too far? Although technically its a lot more central than Simei which is super far east, right?
2) Novena, walk up apartment, asking $3.1k/month. Fully furnished.
Positive factors: It is less than 5 minutes walk to Novena MRT station.
Bus stop right outside, just oppsite is a lot of food places, shops…. the location is amazeeeeballs!!! Novena station to Orchard station is only 2 stops. Which means I can step out of my house and reach Orchard in 15 minutes by public transport. Mind boggling. The pricing is also very reasonable considering its so convenient! Getting anywhere will be fast and easy, settling food or entertainment will also be a piece of cake. I’ve got access to more than 20 food places with a 5 minutes walk. I don’t think I’ll ever need to cook again.
Negative factors: I may just never cook or bake again, for real.
The kitchen is very blah, and doesn’t even come with built in stoves or oven, its just one bought stove top that’s plugged into the electrical socket.. Omg the kitchen basically does not exist. The house layout is nowhere near as cosy or nice as the Yishun one, but its decent / livable. I do hate the fact it only has one toilet though. I don’t like the house design at all but I guess I could put up with it for the sake of the convenience. I suppose I’d be out a lot more because its easy to get around and because there will be no swimming pool or facilities for me to use… no point staying home if your home ain’t very nice. The apartment is also incredibly old looking from the outside, which I don’t really care that much about, but its still a factor. My main concern is that there are NO LIFTS, and the unit is on the 5th floor. LOL definitely going to have slimmer thighs. But I’m not worried about being tired, because after one week of climbing the stairs, you won’t even notice it that much. I’m thinking, how the fuck am I going to go up and down 5 flights of stairs with TWO TIERED WOBBLY CAKES in my hands??? A total absolute nightmare! Transporting a two tiered cake on solid level ground, or any cake for that matter, is already stressful enough. They’re fragile. Add 5 flights of stairs and you have a perfect recipe for disaster. If I stay at the Novena one, I basically have to stop doing cakes almost completely, because the kitchen is not suitable for it and the god damn stairs are not easy to go up and down to hand the cakes to customers either. They’re narrow, small steps and it gets slippery when its wet (I went house viewing when it was raining and the first thing I noticed was how dark and slippery the stairs were) So… I probably have to give up my baking and find a new source of income. Easier said than done… -_-
And yeah. So that is my huge ass dilemma I have to face right now. Gotta make a decision by the next 3 days latest coz I’m going overseas on a blogger trip with Nuffnang on the 5-9 November. I can’t believe how much I’ve typed in the past hour wtf. I DON’T UNDERSTAND WHY I EVEN HAVE TO DEAL WITH THIS…. *sigh* Why now??? Now is seriously NOT the best time for me.
I feel kinda better after getting this load off my chest. I’m going to have a lot to brood over the next coupla days, but for now I need to busy myself with some last few cake orders I’m doing before I go on a baking hiatus while I’m shifting houses, so off I go. For those who have read the whole chunk of frustrated text, you’re awesome. I thank you for sharing part of my burden with me.