White Horse

Came across this song and watching the video really tugs on my heart strings..

Because every scene feels like a flashback, a replay of my life about a year ago:

Say you’re sorry
That face of an angel
Comes out just when you need it to
And I paced back and forth all this time
Cause I honestly believed in you
Holding on
And days drag on

Stupid girl,
I should have known, I should have known

[Chorus]
I’m not a princess, this ain’t a fairy tale
I’m not the one to sweep off her feet,
Lead her up the stairwell
This ain’t Hollywood, this is a small town,
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down
Now it’s too late for you
And your white horse, to come around

Baby I was naive,
Got lost in your eyes
And never really had a chance
My mistake, I didn’t know to be in love
You had to fight to have the upperhand
I had so many dreams
About you and me
Happy endings
Now I know

[Chorus]
I’m not a princess, this ain’t a fairy tale
I’m not the one to sweep off her feet,
Lead her up the stairwell
This ain’t Hollywood, this is a small town,
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down
Now it’s too late for you
And your white horse, to come around

Here you are your sitting there
Begging for forgiveness, begging for me
Just like I always wanted but I’m sooo sorry

Cause I’m not your princess, this ain’t a fairytale
I’m gonna find someone somewhere who might actually treat me well
This is a big world, that was a small town
There in my rearview mirror disappears now
Now it’s too late for you and your white horse
Now it’s too late for you and your white horse, to catch me now

Oh, whoa, whoa, whoa
Try and catch me now
Oh, it’s too late
To catch me now

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“All I want is you. Do you love me?”
“Yeah”

“Can you give me another chance?”
“….No.”

And that awful breakdown afterwards… I can almost taste the tears. That sense of relief because you’ve finally got it over and done with, feeling cheated because everything you believed in came crashing down on you, feeling lost because you don’t know what to do next.

Being cheated on is truly mindfucking and self-destruction at its best. When to convince yourself that he’s not lying to you, you end up lying to yourself instead…

Then it becomes vicious cycle that feels like it’s never going to end… falling into a bottomless pit.

“I’m gonna find someone, someday who might actually treat me well” - I thought that to myself too.. I found him sooner than expected.

My heart goes out to any girl who can relate to this song, because you don’t know heartbreak until you’ve been cheated on.

I definitely know how it feels like. And the best advice I could ever give to a girl in that situation is that forsaking your own happiness for someone who doesn’t treat you right is never worth it.

You may think that your happiness lies with him, but obviously he is not making you happy at all so happiness is somewhere else waiting for you. Go seek it.

Move on, and you’ll thank yourself afterwards.

If there was a God, I’d thank him for letting me get out of a destructive relationship and in place giving me someone who truly appreciates me for who I am.