All the things I miss about being in love

I miss being in love with someone who loves me back.

I miss waking up in the middle of the night from nightmares and having someone right there to hold me until I fall back soundly asleep again.
I miss knowing that I, too, mean everything to the person who means the world to me.
I miss long talks at night planning our future together and being genuinely excited thinking about it.
I miss having someone to cuddle every night.
I miss knowing my name is safe with that person because they loved me for who I was.

I miss having someone look deeply into my eyes every time I talked to them because they cared about everything I said.
I miss someone wiping away my tears when I cry.
I miss not ever having to feel completely alone.
I miss trusting a person wholeheartedly and knowing they’ll never let you down.
I miss believing everything he will tell you without a doubt in my mind.
I miss being with someone who tells me with a convinced look on his face, “You’re the girl I’m going to marry.”

I miss watching movies with someone till we fell asleep late in the night, and feeling like I could spend the rest of my life doing exactly that.
I miss waking up to your significant other in the morning and laughing at their puddle of drool on their pillow.
I miss having a warm pair of hands to hold in the theatre because mine always gets cold.
I miss forehead kisses every single night.
I miss how I knew I always had someone to talk to no matter how insignificant a topic I have in mind.

I miss having someone to share my life with, every little happening and important event.
I miss believing I was worth loving.
I miss loving someone so much, I would gladly exchange my life for theirs.
I miss knowing I’m the reason for someone’s happiness.
I miss someone asking me what I wanted for dinner, and then lets me steal his food when his meal is nicer than mine.
I miss cooking someone’s favorite dishes and seeing him eat them greedily in appreciation.

I miss falling asleep on someone’s shoulder during long car rides.
I miss knowing no matter how great a shit storm life throws at me, I have someone who will be right next to me going through it together.
I miss grocery shopping with someone who was happy to cook with me.
I miss having someone’s undivided attention and being his top priority at all times.
I miss trying to impress someone’s parents, hoping they will like me because I want to be part of his family some day.

I miss putting extra effort to look pretty when going on dates and hoping he would notice it.
I miss going on holiday with someone who makes every great adventure in life even better simply by being part of it.
I miss having someone to love me even when I can’t love myself.
I miss being with someone who is reason why you remember that there is always a reason to smile every day no matter how shitty you’re feeling.

I miss wanting to become a better person so that he can be proud of me.
I miss waking up all excited everyday because it’s another day to be spent with him.
I miss being in a relationship that felt right.
I miss hearing someone special say “hello” to you, and it would sound like the best thing you’ve ever heard.
I miss feeling like everything I ever needed in life was standing right in front of me.

I don’t know if I will find love like that again.
And that thought scares me. Knowing I had something so special, then watching it slip through my very fingers over the years and not knowing exactly how to stop it from going.
Going, going.. Now it’s gone.
Until the day I find someone who’s willing to pick up the pieces with me and go through everything all over again, I guess I’m going to have to learn how to be alone without feeling completely lonely and miserable.

I guess I don’t mind the being alone part so much. What really gets to me are all these voices inside my head telling me,

“You’re never going to find somebody who will love you like that again.”

…And I almost believe them.
Almost.

But I still hope I’ll find someone to have and to hold in my life again some day. I know finding that person will be worth all the prior heartbreak. And it will be worth the wait.

xoxo,
Jess

Margaret River Escape

To say that life has been a roller coaster recently would be an understatement.

There’s been so many ups and downs, I’m thoroughly exhausted from it all. I’ve laughed and cried so hard and so often that I couldn’t breathe properly at all. In the past 7 months of 2015, I’ve loved and lost more than I have throughout the combined past few years of my life. I’ve suffered great emotional trauma, and many long nights slowly turn into days as I lie wide awake in bed questioning who I am and what I’m doing with my life. While I’m still licking my wounds, I thought it would be a pleasant change to share some really fond memories on my blog from June 2015.

It was a completely impromptu trip to Perth. No matter how many times I visit this place, no trip ever feels or is the same. I booked my flight at 1pm and got on the plane at 5pm.

No prior planning, I just #YOLO-ed all the way and put full faith in the spontaneity of my friends. I happened to have some friends going to Perth at the same time, which worked out wonderfully. It was the first time I hopped on a plane not knowing what I’d end up doing in the other country. I have friends and family in Perth which made me a lot less anxious, but I’d love to do the same thing again some day in a country where I know absolutely no one!

Food, such glorious food!
Good food ALWAYS makes my day. I got to stay with my friend Jarrett and his amazingly hospitable family for a couple of days and they treated me so well. We ate more than our stomachs could handle every day and here’s just a few of the dishes we devoured.

And then there was this epic 3d2n road trip down to Margaret River which I took with my incredible friends Charles and Sarah. I love these two to the moon and back! The four of us rented an apartment literally in the middle of the woods (surrounded by wild kangaroos!) and it was the true meaning of road trippin’ in the Australian outback.

The holiday home we had for 3 days couldn’t be any more quaint and lovely.

We slapped steaks and sausages on the outdoor grill and had meats and wine in our backyard every night. We cooked up a STORM. Our landlady was an angel, she brought us nice berries, orange juice, freshly baked bread (which was to die for).

We drove for hours on the endless roads everyday, taking in the vast greenery and singing along to every song we knew that came on Spotify. Looking at horses, sheep, cows and other various animals on the side of the road. We did everything right – visited cheese / chocolate factories, animal farms, hedge maze, wineries, then ended our nights in the best way I can think of – shrieking with laughter over board games, listening to chill music while randomly talking about life and getting real buzzed. Hanging around positive and like-minded people can do so many good things for your broken soul. I was lapping up every single second of it. It was one of those, “I’m going to remember this even when I’m 50″ moments.

Some of my best memories from 2015.

When I couldn’t love myself, I was blessed enough to be surrounded by kind people who loved me and showed me that there is always still a reason to smile no matter how shitty you’re feeling.

Thank you so much.

xoxo,
Jess

Lactacyd Female Hygiene Wash

Here’s a little disclaimer to let you guys know that the blog post ahead is intended for females.

Did you know that in Singapore, only 4 out of 10 women use a feminine wash for their private areas? Unfortunately, I have not been one of those 4 in-the-know women, up until my recent discovery of Lactacyd!

Lactacyd is a Feminine Hygiene wash brand that has been prescribed by doctors and trusted by women for over 25 years. It is the number 1 feminine wash in Singapore and leading expert in Feminine Hygiene care, offering a comprehensive range of products suitable for women.

Using water or shower gel is simply not good enough as the pH of the V area is naturally acidic, hence a dedicated wash is required to take care of a female’s most intimate area! I wish I’d known this earlier. Using a dedicated feminine wash can also reduce the risk of odor, irritation and bacterial growth.

Just as we have different types of soaps for our face, body, and hair, a dedicated wash should be for one of the most important areas of our body that is all too often accidentally overlooked or neglected! I know most girls are too shy to talk about topics like these, but really, there’s nothing to be embarrassed about.

All Lactacyd products have undergone strict clinical trials, and have been proven to be not only safe but effective.

There is a Lactacyd variant for different phases in a woman’s life:

  • Lactacyd Revitalize – for firmer looking skin around the V
  • Lactacyd White Intimate – for fairer looking skin in just 4 weeks
  • Lactacyd Soft & Silky – for smoother V for after grooming
  • Lactacyd All-Day Fresh – to keep the V area feeling fresher for longer
  • Lactacyd Feminine Hygiene – for days you need extra care

I keep a whole range of these handy in my bathroom, because they serve different purposes throughout the month!

My favorite to use would be the Lactacyd Feminine Hygiene, as I find the V area to be most irritated and sensitive during my period, and this is when Lactacyd becomes a life saver by making sure I stay fresh and clean at any given point of the day. I tend to stay out and about for longer hours, whether I’m running from one appointment to the other or clubbing all night.. it means it may be a full day or extended hours before I can wash up or take a shower. Using the Lactacyd Feminine hygiene and keeping feminine wipes in my handbag proved to be an extremely good idea for keeping me feeling and smelling good all day long.

 

Lactacyd Feminine Hygiene contains milk essences, lactic acid and lactoserum which helps maintain your V’s pH balance and keeps it feeling naturally clean for a longer period of time. The texture is milky and runny and has a very pleasant floral scent which smells great.

Although I’ve never known this before, the difference between using Lactacyd and normal body soap is a big one once you’ve become a convert. It feels so much better! I’ll never go back to using just body wash for my sensitive areas again.

A few of my favorite girly essentials together all decked out in my favorite color, pink! Along with my other beauty must-haves, like my perfume, mirror and accessories, is my newest addition to my beauty regime: Lactacyd Feminine Hygiene wash.

If you’ve never tried using Lactacyd or a female hygiene wash before and would like to find out what the fuss is about, it’s your lucky day girls – Lactacyd is sending free samples right to your doorstep! Just fill out the form at this link, and wait at home for your goodies to arrive. Let us embrace all things that make us feminine and the women that we are!

xoxo,
Jess

Recipe: Zucchini Slice and Parmesan Crisp by Perfect Italiano

If there’s one ingredient I never get bored of experimenting with, it’s good ol’ glorious cheese. Cheese is pretty much top on the list of my favorite things in the world.

There’s just so many things you could do with it – grill, bake, deep fry, turn it into a sauce or simply have it on its own. The brand that’s been making a constant appearance in my fridge for what’s coming to almost 2 years now is Perfect Italiano. The signature bright green bags of cheese can be found in my kitchen at any given point in time! Perfect Italiano is a cooking cheese brand that adds simple Italian flair to everyday family meals. It is simple and easy to use, and easy to use – ensuring that homemade meals are not complex or time consuming.

My favorite consistency of cheese is the ooey gooey melted type which can be found in pizzas and baked dishes, and that’s why the next Perfect Italiano cheese recipe I’m going to bring you is yet another baked till perfectly golden brown creation!

 

Zucchini Slice

As much as I love my baked pastas, some days I feel like having something lighter, so this zucchini slice recipe is what I’d turn to when I want something lower in carbs than pasta that still has that satisfying bite and texture!

Ingredients:

  • 5 eggs
  • 120g self raising flour
  • 350g of zucchini
  • 1 large onion
  • 200g bacon or skinless chicken
  • 220g of Perfect Italiano Perfect bakes cheese
  • 1/4 cup vegetable oil

Directions:

  1. Preheat your oven to 180 degrees, and grease a 9″ inch pan, or preferably, a baking dish
  2. Break the eggs into a large mixing bowl, and gently combine egg whites & yolks together
  3. Add self raising flour and mix to a smooth consistency
  4. Grate the zucchhini, finely chop the onion, and dice the bacon. If you are using chicken, dice the chicken and cook it first.
  5. Add zucchini, onions, bacon / chicken, Perfect Italiano Perfect Bakes cheese and oil into the large mixing bowl
  6. If you are using chicken, then add half a teaspoon of salt to the mixing bowl
  7. Mix everything together until the batter is uniform
  8. Bake in the oven for about 30 minutes
  9. To achieve a golden brown crust, turn the temperature up to 220 degrees for the last 5 minutes
  10. Let cool for 8 minutes before serving so that the zucchini slice may stiffen up to reasonably stable consistency for easier handling

I love using avocado and zucchini in my cooking because of how delicious and good they are for you!

Their creamy and fleshy meat lends a very versatile use to dishes, and in this case, the zucchini makes for a very smooth and creamy quiche. If you’d like to go for a halal friendly or healthier option, feel free to use diced chicken instead of bacon. I’m a bacon-everything kinda girl, so please don’t be alarmed at how often bacon appears in the recipes I post.

My favorite part of this dish is undoubtedly the golden brown cheesy crust, made with Perfect Italiano Perfect Bakes.

I’m sure it’s common knowledge by now that cheesy crust just makes anything baked about a hundred times more delicious.
I’d serve this zucchini slice as a breakfast item (made the day before, of course) or as an afternoon snack / side dish! Even if you don’t normally fancy leafy vegetables, this zucchini slice will take you by surprise because of how creamy it tastes.

You’re going to love this next recipe because there’s only one ingredient used and it is oh so tasty!

 

Parmesan Cheese Crisps

Ingredient:

  • Perfect Italiano Parmesan Cheese

Directions:

  1. Preheat oven to 200 degrees
  2. Lay baking paper on the baking tray
  3. Place about circular domes of Perfect Italiano Parmesan Cheese that are approximately 6cm in diameter
  4. Bake for 4-5 minutes, being careful not to let it burn as it will make the crisp taste bitter

How great are these?!

You know those cheese crisps you find in fine dining restaurants? Well who knew they were this simple to make? They can be done in a mere few minutes and in my opinion, it tastes better than any cheese snacks I’ve bought in supermarkets before.
They turn out crispy on the edges, slightly chewy in the middle and packed with a bold flavor. They work so well to jazz up your soups, salads, pastas, or just eat them the way I do – on its own! I could finish up 8 crisps in one sitting! No other ingredients or preparation steps needed.

Simply lay Perfect Bakes Parmesan cheese then bake until golden brown, and enjoy. If you normally find parmesan cheese a little too strong for your liking, don’t worry, the taste and aroma is tamed the moment it’s baked. Just pure crispy cheesy goodness here! Even if you don’t cook, this is doable by anyone.

From 15 May to 15 July 2015, Perfect Italiano is giving away FREE Perfect Italiano cooking kits for every purchase of $30 worth of Perfect Italiano products. Accumulated receipts are allowed!

Perfect Italiano Cooking Kit Redemption Mechanics

Send original receipts to: Perfect Italiano Cooking Kit Tanjong Pagar Post Office, PO Box 396, S(910814) with your Name, NRIC, Address and Contact No. Each cooking kit set will comprise of: 1 Cutting Board, 1 Cheese Shaker, 1 Spaghetti

Scooper, 1 Pizza Cutter and 1 Recipe Booklet. Promotion valid from 15 May to 15 July 2015. Prizes will be sent directly to winners by registered mail. Strictly limited to 700 sets on a first-come, first-served basis. *For Terms & conditions, visit www.perfectitaliano.com.sg

Do give these cheesy recipes a try and hashtag #PerfectItalianoSG when you post on social media!

You can find more of my Perfect Italiano cheese recipes for your perusal below:

Mac and Cheese and Deli Sandwich

Alfredo Pasta Bake and Parmesan Apple Crumble

Tortilla Pizza and French Onion Soup

Cheesy Eggy Mee Goreng and Cheesy Chocolate Banana Fritters

xoxo,
Jess

Uriage Thermal Water

I love using facial sprays!
I am a big fan of spritzing the good stuff all over my face, a habit I’ve picked up thanks to living in a country as hot and humid as Singapore.

I’ve recently been introduced to Uriage Thermal Water, and I’m blown away by the benefits of this spray.

Pure and enriched by nature, Uriage Thermal Water is an exceptional treatment water renowned for its unique. Originating in the French Alps, Uriage Thermal Water bursts forth at an altitude of 422m, at a temperature of 28ºC. Packaged directly at the source, it is pure and naturally rich in mineral salts and trace elements. The isotonic nature of its water means that the Thermal center is unique in offering dermatological (such as eczema and psoriasis) and ENT (Ear Nose Throat) treatments.

My skin tends to get irritated and flushed easily. Just a bit of dust or some heat from the sun will turn my face red in a matter of seconds. I enjoy using facial sprays because I find it immediately calms the skin on my face down, leaving it feeling more relaxed, moisturized and protected against the elements. Of course, it’s also fantastic for staying cool in warm weather!

I especially love bringing a bottle of spray whenever I go traveling in warm countries, because it’s such an ingenious way to beat the heat! Just spritz some onto yourself and leave the thermal water to act on your skin, the feeling of having it evaporate off your face is tingly and awesome!

The petite version of the Uriage Thermal Water fits easily inside any handbag of mine, which makes it a convenient pick-me-up whenever I feel like I need to be revitalized throughout the day. When I’m feeling restless, sleepy or tired, this spray also helps make me feel more alert and energized.

Our body fluids and water content found in our skin is naturally isotonic. It acts like a physiological serum which fully respects the skin and does not alter any cells activity. Uriage Thermal Water is naturally isotonic as well, hence it has the same effect due to the high concentration of mineral properties, aiding in healthier, hydrated and protected skin. This isotonic element allows users to spray and leave the water to act on its own, while other thermal waters require users to wipe it off after spraying on the skin.

In a nutshell, the Uriage Thermal Water is good for..

✓ Strengthening skin barrier
✓ Preserve the balance of skin cells
✓ Prevent dehydration of skin epidermis
✓ Moisturising properties
✓ Soothing effects due to high level of calcium and magnesium salt

My essentials for a sunny day out!

Can’t live without my trusty Olympus camera, fashionable sunnies, my iPhone and of course, facial products to protect my delicate skin from the harsh environment.

There will be a change in packaging for the Thermal Water, and Sunscreen soon, but don’t be worried by the new look because the content will be still be the same trustworthy good stuff! The 300ml Thermal Water as shown will be the new design.

With 20 years of skin expertise, Uriage Dermatological Laboratories develop products in collaboration with dermatologists and pharmacists from all over the world. The products are subject to clinical testing which support each of their claims.Uriage provides a full range of products formulated with a unique active ingredient, Uriage Thermal Water.

All skincare products are formulated according to a strict charter which adheres to pharmaceutical standards. The formulas are hypoallergenic, non-comedogenic, paraben-free, and with a minimum concentration of preservatives to better respect your sensitive skin.

As seen here is the Uriage BARIÉSUN SPF 50+ Fragrance Free Cream and Uriage BARIÉSUN SPF 50+ Tinted Claire Cream.

These suncare products provide moisturizing and anti-free radical protection in very fluid textures that are exceptionally pleasant to use! Protective tinted suncare is ideal for those who cannot expose their skin to the sun but want to look slightly tan or who would like an immediate, natural-looking healthy glow. This product comes in the new packaging, which all suncare range under Uriage will eventually change to as well. I would use the tinted claire cream for lazy days when I want some coverage for my complexion without having to apply any other product, and the original if I intend to put on a full face of make up for that day! The tinted claire cream is oil free, which is suitable for oily / combination skin.

Sunscreen is one of the most important steps you can’t miss out for skin care! Not only does it aid in fighting pigmentation and premature aging, it also keeps your skin healthy and young looking. It is one crucial beauty factor that girls all too commonly neglect. Even on days where it doesn’t look or feel that sunny, you still need your UV protection! No matter how much of a rush I am in, I never skip applying sun care products.

With these combined products from Uriage, I’m ready for a day out at the beach or lounging by the pool without worrying about the condition of my skin. I know it’s being taken care of even while I’m busy having fun!

Uriage products are available in selected stores of 21st Century Beauty Spa, BHG, Guardian, John little, Metro, OG, Robinsons and Watsons. There’s currently a promotion for Uriage Thermal Water Twin Pack 300ml $29.90, whereas the rest of the products are on 20% discount only for the month of July, so it’s the perfect time to pick up a bottle and try the benefits for yourself!

Uriage Official Website
Uriage Facebook Page

xoxo,
Jess
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